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My Life Thus Far
2008-07-16 05:04:25 (UTC)

Nursing In Public Places

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I'm really tired. I had a great day, but I'm hoping with
all my might that Keenan sleeps tonight. Last night he
decided to pull an all-nighter. He didn't cry or fuss. He
was just awake. Snookums usually stays up with me, but
he's back at work, so it was just the baby and I. I
couldn't go to sleep if Keenan wanted to be awake. I don't
know why, but it seems wrong. He ended up staying awake
until almost 3am. Then woke up to eat at 5:30am. I wasn't
too happy about that. I had to take Annie to summer camp
this morning, so I didn't really get much sleep. I wish I
knew a sure fire way to get Keenan to sleep in some kind
of predictable fashion. One night he sleeps like he's in a
coma, the next he doesn't want to sleep at all. I hate not
having a routine. It sucks!

I spent a good portion of the night messaging Nicole back
and forth. Turns out she was having some personal problems
and needed a scapegoat. Somehow I was her unlucky victim.
I'm not at liberty to share what's going on with her, but
I'll just say it's something she wants that I have.
Something that's always come very easily for me. Too
easily, really. She apologized for the comments she made
and asked to be my friend again. I accepted her, but
honestly with friends like her, I'm pretty sure I don't
need any enemies.

This morning after dropping Annie off at camp I stopped by
Naval Hospital to see if I could talk with Dr. Ennis'
nurse about getting Keenan seen. I tried calling, but no
one ever called me back. Keenan is supposed to go in this
week for a check-up, but Dr. Ennis is (as always) booked
completely solid for at least the next six weeks. His
nurse has the ability to pencil people into the cancelled
appointments and the walk-in appointments. I couldn't make
the appointment last time we where there because Keenan
wasn't enrolled into Tricare (the military insurance) yet
and for some reason they gave us the run-around with that.
I don't remember it being a problem with Kiki, but this
time it was. Even after showing up in person I still
didn't get an appointment. Dr. Ennis has been transferred
from Family Medicine to Pediatrics, so I have to wait for
him to get back with me. I'm a little bummed about him
moving. I was hoping he'd be my primary care manager, but
there's no hope of that now. I hope I don't have to go
back to my old PCM. She's not even a doctor and I don't
like her that much.

I wanted to go shopping today and I thought Snookums would
want to go with me, but instead he kept the girls and
Keenan and I went together instead. He was going to keep
Keenan too, but since Keenan isn't taking to the bottle at
all I just decided it would be easier if I kept him with
me.

I went to the mall to see my girls at work. I got lucky
everyone I used to work with (that's still there) were all
working and I got to chat with them for awhile. I let
Tamara know that I'm willing to come back the first week
of August. I'm still going to work evenings so Snookums
can be with the kids, but it'll be a little time away for
me, so that's good.

Keenan and I got a chance to use our new nursing cover-up.
It worked fabulously and I feel much better about the
whole prospect of nursing in public places. I bought
myself a chai milkshake and got myself comfortable on one
of the sofas at Kataluma chai. Plenty of people walked by.
Some smiled at us. Others looked, realized what we were
doing and then looked away quickly, pretending they didn't
notice. I expect that reaction from some. Making other
people uncomfortable isn't my intention, but it isn't my
problem either if they are.

I bought everyone a little something. Mainly summer
clothes. You don't realize how much your children grow
each year until they pull out shorts from the year before
and they're daisy dukes. Snookums got some shorts and a
nice outfit I won't be ashamed to be seen with him in and
I bought myself an interesting pair of shoes at Lady Food
Locker. They're called Fit Flops. They're these specially
designed flip flops that are supposed to work your feet,
legs, butt and back. I don't know about that. I could use
all the help I can get, but if they don't work, I still
like the way they look.

Sorry this entry isn't up to my usual standards. I'm just
too tired to write legibly. Even though it's not quite
10pm, I think I'm going to try to get to bed early
tonight. Even if Keenan doesn't want to sleep, he'll have
to entertain himself in his bassinet tonight. Ciao.




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