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My Life Thus Far
2008-07-12 06:20:16 (UTC)

An Adventure In Parenting

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Thankfully, last night was a good night for Keenan (which
meant it was a good night for mommy and daddy). He went to
bed and slept a four hour block, woke up to eat and then
slept another four hour block. I can't complain. Every
night is an adventure in parenting. One we try to prepare
ourselves for each day. What will tonight bring, I wonder?
It's already after 11pm, past the hour Keenan usually
starts crying and we've still got silence. He's sitting on
the couch looking at daddy (while daddy makes silly faces
and funny noises). I love watching them together :)

I can't even recall what I did with my entire day. My life
is a blur of childcare and household chores. Feeding,
diapering times two (Kiki and Keenan) and disciplining
(usually Annie). Time flies. So, that was what I did with
the majority of my day. Maintenance came around 10am to
change the filters in the furnace. That's the most
interesting thing I can think of that happened.

I tried my Lilypadz today and I'm sad to say I was very
disappointed. I kind of suspected I might be one of the
ones they didn't work for, because of a review I read. A
lady who has a very abundant milk supply said her milk
pooled behind the pad and then eventually made it's way
out all at once. I too have an abundant milk supply. So, I
was expecting the worst. I followed the instructions to a
T. I washed my padz in warm water with dish soap and let
them dry while I took a shower. I made sure my nipples
were nice and dry. I applied firm pressure. My biggest
problem is letdown. The rest of the time I'm leak free.
When Keenan nurses on one side, the other side flows just
as freely as the side he's nursing on. That was the true
test. Could the Lilypadz stop letdown? The answer was a
resounding NO. I went to switch Keenan to the other side
and there was a big old milk puddle! So, I'm back to
disposable pads. I ran out of Medela ones (my favorite
brand, but I can't get them everywhere), so I'm using some
Avent ones Snookums bought me at Safeway. They're like
putting a mattress in your bra. I'm getting a huge box of
Medela's the next time I go to Target or Motherhood
Maternity.

Last night and tonight Snookums let me go out on my own to
get dinner. Both times I relished the idea of getting out
on my own, but from the moment I left out the front door
to the moment I came home, all I could think about was the
baby. It was like I would have a mini anxiety attack
because I was too far away from him. I spent the first 3
months solid with Kiki. I didn't leave her alone with
Snookums or anything. We just didn't leave the house. As I
was driving away (just going to Safeway to get a
rotisserie chicken and some corn on the cob), I thought to
myself "if it's this hard just going to the store, how am
I going to leave him for 4 or 5 hours to work"? I don't
have much time until I promised Tamara I'd come back (the
beginning of August). I'll just have to work through my
separation anxiety, I guess.

Keenan is pleading with me for food. So, I must sign off
for now. Ciao and goodnight :)




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