Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
Anticipation Of The Imminent
It's a little after 2pm. I don't want to jinx myself, but
I think I might have Keenan soon! (By soon I mean in the
next day or two). I'm starting to get that same feeling I
had right before Kiki came. Almost like a restless animal.
I hate to compare myself to an animal, but that's kind of
what it feels like. Anticipation of the imminent.
Something is about to happen.
I slept really good last night. I went to bed soon after I
finished writing. I fell asleep a little after 1am and
slept soundly through the night. I woke up around 7:30am
when I heard the girls start to move around, but Helena
got up with them and I decided it would be a good day to
stay in bed a little later. I'm not going to get too many
opportunities like that once Keenan gets here. So, I laid
in bed until a little before 11am. It felt sooooo good. No
guilt, either. Helena is amazed at what I do on a daily
basis and keeps encouraging me to sit down and relax.
Which I'm surprised about. I hadn't considered that maybe
I do a lot. I don't think I do a lot. I mean, I take care
of myself, my house, my animals, my husband, my job and my
kids (not necessarily in that order), but I don't think
about it. That's just what I'm supposed to do.
Responsibility. It's a bitch, but what can you do?
Helena is grocery shopping again. I don't think I've ever
been in a grocery store three days in a row, but that
woman can not sit still. Today she's there for more toilet
paper (even though I have 15 rolls between the two
bathrooms), paper towels (9 rolls in the kitchen cabinet
apparently isn't enough), cat litter (she just bought two
30 lb containers of Tidy Cats yesterday) and a box of
Cheese Nips for Kiki. I thought I was the one that was
supposed to be nesting. Whatever. It's her money. I'm
having a baby, not getting ready for Armageddon. A three
week supply of everything is good enough. I'll have to
leave for food eventually. I can buy more toilet paper (or
whatever) then.
I'm having some pretty convincing contractions today.
While I was laying in bed, I could feel my uterus
tightening and relaxing over and over again. They're
getting more involved now. I'm feeling them all through my
abdomen, around to my lower back and down into my pelvis.
When I sat down on the computer chair, my girl parts hurt.
There's a throbbing soreness down there that isn't usually
there. I suppose maybe that could be a slight indicator
that something will happen soon. They're still not
terribly painful. Just more radiating. Each one covering
more ground than just the top of my uterus.
Well, Helena's home. I should go now. I'll just ask it one
more time...WISH ME LUCK!
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