Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2008-04-23 03:27:42 (UTC)

Full Disclosure

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I got some surprising news a few hours ago. I'm still
trying to process it. Trying to decide what I think about
it. It's not good, it's not bad, but I feel like it's got
some level of significance that I'm not understanding yet.
I'll explain later.

Kiki had her last one on one therapy session this morning.
I tried not to be emotional about it. I wasn't, but the
potential for an emotional moment was there. She's been
going to Holly Ridge since she was a little over 18 months
old and it's hard to imagine her not going there anymore.
Especially since there isn't going to be another place
taking over that spot in her life. Her therapist isn't so
happy about the school districts decision to pull her out
of speech therapy. Siting the same things that I feel
concerned about. Her articulation is still lacking and
who's going to help her rehabilitate or learn how to use
her "new" tongue after she has the surgery? She doesn't
usually have therapy during the summer anyway, so maybe
come September they'll see the need to put her back into
something. Maybe it's just me wanting the best for her,
but right now it seems that I'm the best for her. She
wasn't showing all this progress until I gave up my full
time job and started staying home with her.

While Kiki was at therapy, I did some quick shopping. I
stopped by Rumplenewskins to look for a fetal doppler.
Rumplenewskins is a little children's and maternity
consignment shop in Poulsbo. I was hoping to find a fetal
doppler there second hand because I'd kind of like to have
one (to help me figure out the baby's position), but I
don't want to buy one new. I suppose it isn't of that much
importance now (explanation coming later). I also stopped
by Ross to buy myself a dress. I went in there
specifically with the intention of buying myself a dress.
At work, I wear the same old maternity blazer. I'm tired
of it. So, I found the cutest black faux wrap dress that
works perfectly with the belly (even though it's not
maternity). I think I'll be able to get some wear out of
it after I have the baby, too. Although I think it might
be too big rather quick. It was only $16.00 so it doesn't
really matter if it doesn't fit for long.

Gen and I got together to do our Starbucks thing. Even
though some days it feels like a monumental task to get
out of bed, get dressed and get Kiki out of the house, I
always enjoy the time Gen and I have together. Even if it
went from just us to us and our kids :) Starbucks is a
great place for stay at home moms. It would be better if
ours had highchairs! That was one of our discussions
today, in fact.

I came home after that, because Kiki was in need of a nap.
She wasn't overly cranky, but she had sleepy eyes and kept
laying her head on my shoulder. Sure signs nap time isn't
far off. Snookums came home soon after us, then Annie and
the family just spent time hanging out together in the
living room. We had KFC for dinner (Snookums pick, not
mine), then we watched some cartoons. That's when we got a
phone call.

Snookums doesn't usually get phone calls, so it got our
attention. He looked at his phone and recognized it as a
Naval Hospital number (they all start with 475). Tricare
has his number as our default number (why I don't know,
he's never home and doesn't usually answer it when he is)
So, he answered it this time. It was a gynecologist at the
OB clinic. I'm not seen at OB, I'm seen at Family
Practice, so I was already a little confused. He passed
the phone to me and I started talking to the nice lady on
the other end. She asked me if my doctor had told me about
her (I said "no", because I haven't talked to my doctor
since my last appointment and he didn't mention anything
about OB then). Apparently I'm being considered "high
risk" now. Why? I don't know. I was considered high risk
with Annie because of my age (16), but I don't see why I
would be now. This is why I feel that there's something
they aren't telling me. According to this doctor, I'm
going to have to go in every week to have my fluid levels
measured and to have 1 hour fetal stress tests done. Every
week. I had the same condition with Kiki and I never had
to have any stress tests done. This is on top of my usual
prenatal visits and the ultrasound next week. I'm starting
to feel a little overwhelmed. Simply because I feel like
something isn't being shared. What does it take to get
full disclosure from these people? Do they think I can't
handle it? My first appointment is at 11am tomorrow
morning. I'll let you know how that goes. The nice thing
is, I can bring Kiki. They've got a little lounge for kids
where she can watch movies and have snacks. That's great.
They should have that open for all appointments at Naval
Hospital.

I'm tired. For some reason I didn't take my nap today and
I can feel the difference. I'm ready to go lay down now.
Ciao until tomorrow.




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