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My Life Thus Far
2008-04-21 12:14:18 (UTC)

My Body Is Confused

I would have written last night, but my internet
connection was down and I didn't feel like messing with it
or calling technical support. Sometimes I wonder why I pay
so much for cable broadband internet when half the time
(okay, a smaller percentage than that) it isn't there for
me. I remember back in the day when everybody had dial-up
because there was no other option. I never had trouble
getting on. Granted, I had to turn on the computer, go
take a shower, get dressed and by the time I was done hope
the computer had booted up. Cable is so much faster. When
it works. Maybe it's just Wave, I don't know. They kind of
have a monopoly over military housing, so there isn't much
I can do about it, even if that were the case. Enough
about my internet connection. It's up now (after much
tinkering with it on my part).

Yesterday was basically Saturday repeating itself. I
didn't do much other than lay around and watch tv or read.
I didn't pay much attention to the baby, like I did
Saturday. I'm kind of over him at the moment. It isn't
that much fun poking at your stomach, hoping the squirmy
thing inside will poke back. At least not for days on end.
He's probably just as tired of me as I am of him. 45 days
and we get to separate! That sounds like a lot of days,
but I remember when it was in the triple digits. Then the
high double digits. Before I know it, the day will come
when he finally does come out. I've never wished my kids
back into my womb. I've always been grateful to have them
here, but there's always a first. I've never had a boy
before. I know I'll be glad to have him out. I may have to
get up with him at all hours of the morning, but I'm up
NOW and it's all hours of the morning, so what's the
difference? At least then I won't be as uncomfortable AND
up at 4am.

I had a meeting at work last night. There wasn't much of a
turn-out. I was kind of hoping to see some of my favorite
co-workers. Now that I'm only working once or twice a week
(if that), I don't get to see much of them. I'm not one of
those people that shows up at work if I don't have to be
there. Although, if I want to see some of my girls, it
looks like that's what I'll have to do. I haven't seen
Jenny or Tiffany in months. When I have worked, it's been
with Tamara or Brittany. Last week it was Brittany because
Tamara was at some VS function in San Diego. I don't even
know if some of the girls I used to work with regularly
are still here. There were 3 new girls at the meeting. I
didn't catch their names, not that I would have remembered
them anyway. One of them actually had the audacity to ask
me to cover her shift on Friday so her boyfriend could
take her to the Navy ball. I told her no. Next Friday is
Kiki's birthday. If it was that important to her, she
should have requested the day off. I know, I'm mean, but
it's exhausting getting to know all these different girls.
Training them, working with them, trying to help them out,
then they up and leave a couple weeks later. The girls
hired around holiday are all gone now. Even the one's they
kept on permanently have left. Why bother?

Tamara has gotten bigger since the last time I saw her.
She was 19 weeks then, now she's 23 weeks and some days
and her tummy has doubled. I think she looks just as big
as I do! I stick out further, but she's rounder. Not to be
mean, we all carry differently, but I hadn't imagined
she'd get very big. She's put on a little weight in the
face and doesn't walk as fast, but she's still able to
work 10 hour days, something I couldn't do anymore by 24
weeks, so she's doing better than me! I haven't seen
Tiffany in awhile, probably not in a good 6 weeks or so. I
probably won't see her until our baby shower. I'm curious
to see what she looks like now. She was a couple days
ahead of me, but they changed my due date at the last
ultrasound to June 2nd. So, I'm officially 1 day ahead of
her. I'm still saying my due date is June 5th, because if
I go past June 2nd (not that I really think I will, but if
I do) it won't be as discouraging. He'll have 3 days to
come before I start getting REALLY impatient!

I'm not sure what I want to do right now. It's a little
after 5am. I'm tired, but I don't know if I can get
comfortable enough to sleep. Snookums will be up soon to
get ready for work. I'm slightly irritated that sleep is
so hard to come by. Why is it I want to sleep when I can't
and can't sleep when I can? My body is confused. Ciao.




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