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My Life Thus Far
A Dull Heaviness
I don't feel so good :( I don't feel like myself at all.
Not that I have, REALLY these past 7 months, but even less
so today. Last night, it occurred to me that the palms of
my hands and the soles of my feet have been itching for
the past couple of days. I just figured it was dry skin,
but it doesn't seem to matter how much lotion I put on. I
can't make that strange itch go away. Then today, I woke
up with what feels like a boulder in my chest. It's hard
to breath, swallow, yawn. Anything. I thought it was
heartburn, until I thought about it and realized that it
isn't a burning sensation I'm feeling. It's an ache. A
dull heaviness in my chest. I googled the itching and of
course as with all pregnancy symptoms its either something
totally benign or something scary, dangerous and worth
worrying about. Since my doctor takes nothing seriously
(everything is normal and expected during pregnancy, just
deal), I figure I won't say anything about it unless I
develop more definitive symptoms. Right now I'll just go
crazy itching myself and hoping my liver isn't failing. A
boulder crushing my chest and phantom itching are way less
scary than liver failure.
I'm trying to keep myself busy. There really is always
something that needs to be done. So, why not putter around
the house getting those said things done? Kiki and I went
out this morning for coffee with Gen and Cyrus. Then,
lunch at Applebee's (I felt the need for a cheeseburger).
It was Kiki's nap time when we got home, so I put her down
on the couch and pitter-pattered around the house
gathering up straggling bits of laundry that have
accumulated since I cleaned on Saturday. Thanks to my
maximum capacity, front-loading marvel of a washing
machine, I've already cut my mountain into a mole hill.
Half the pile is gone and I've only done two loads. I love
those machines.
I think tomorrow while Kiki is in therapy I'll go look at
beds for her. I also need to pick up some things for the
laundry and cat rooms. A new laundry sorter, because mine
has mysteriously become broken. I don't know who to blame
about that, so I'll just replace it. I want to get the
cats a bigger litter box, too. I happened to see Zeus
trying to use the box today and he was having a hard time.
Now that there's two of them, they need more room. I'll
also get a mat to catch stray litter. My feet were
crunching on kitty litter 30 feet away from the box. I
hate that. So, I've made a list and that's what I'll do
tomorrow. Annie will be with me, so I'll either have help
or a hindrance. We'll see. Conferences are this week, so
she gets time off.
This morning Snookums ship was on the news. I think it's
really stupid that every move the Stennis (or any other
surface ship, for that matter) makes is broadcasted on the
local news. Already, it's a floating target. They might as
well paint a big red bulls-eye on the flight deck, why do
they have to tell everyone what it's doing and where it's
going? There was even aerial footage, looking down on the
people clearing the flight deck. This was before it pulled
out of port. I didn't think they could do that. What is it
going to take for them to keep quiet about military
movements? The average person has no need to know what the
military is up to.
The pressure on my chest is back :( I hate this feeling.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do now. I still have a good
bit of time before my next load is ready to go in/come
out. I guess I'll sweep and mop the kitchen. Then the
bathroom. Maybe vacuum. I don't know. Ciao.
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