Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
Isn't That Always How It Goes?
I give up on sleep. I'm tired of trying to sleep every
night, only to be sore and irritated (not to mention STILL
tired) the next morning. I know this is a hallmark symptom
of the third trimester, but it sucks and I hate it. I may
have hated morning sickness in the first trimester, but at
least I could sleep well at night. On my stomach no less!
I miss those days...Not the sickness. The stomach
sleeping. How sad. I'm reminiscing about sleeping! What is
this child doing to me?! Last night I tried so many
different positions. With pillows, without pillows,
propped up, laying back. Nothing worked for very long. But
of course after Snookums left a little before 5am I
started to settle down and if felt like I could have
fallen asleep for awhile. Only, Kiki had therapy this
morning, so I had to be up in a couple of hours. Isn't
that always how it goes?
Speaking of Snookums leaving this morning, that's causing
me a little irritation too. Snookums has been working the
most horrendous hours lately. Leaving for work before 5am,
getting home around 6 or 7pm (if he's lucky), then having
duty on top of it, which he has today. I'm starting to
wonder why the Navy even lets him off the ship at all.
He'd get more sleep if he just stayed there. The Stennis
has a new Commanding Officer, who does things a lot
differently than the last CO. They're leaving on a fast
cruise soon, but instead of letting them have more time
with their families, like the other CO did, he makes them
work longer and harder on things they used to do while on
fast cruise! It doesn't make sense. Jason won't be home
when the baby is born either. I know I'm not the only one
having a baby in early June. That's 9 months after coming
back from an 8 month deployment. Half the crew will be
having babies that month. But, someone thought it would be
a good idea to do work-ups from the end of April until the
beginning of July. Just when everyone would be having
their babies, of course. I'd like to have a meeting with
whoever makes the Stennis' schedule, I want to punch him
in the face, kick him in the balls and then make fun of
him for not having a wife or girlfriend, because I'd bet
money he doesn't. He's some pathetic lifer who doesn't
have anything better to do than go out to sea. If he had a
wife, she would have told him June wasn't a good time. I
would have rather had him gone sometime in the middle of
the pregnancy, or even now, over when I'm supposed to
deliver. I'm perfectly capable of having the baby on my
own. I've done it before. All I can think about is who's
going to bring me ice water when I'm in the hospital :)
They have my favorite kind of ice. The little pellets that
have air in them and are really easy to chew. I love that
ice. I got to have some when I was at the hospital last
week. Okay, now I sound crazy. But I do love their ice
machine. I'd drink so much more water if we had one of
those at home.
I need to go do something before I fall asleep. The urge
to lay down and take a nap is very strong. I can't do that
though. Kiki's at therapy and I have to go pick her up in
45 minutes. I don't want to be late, or she'll freak out.
I have to be the first one through the door as soon as
class is over, because she's always right by the door
waiting for me. It's very sweet. Ciao for now.
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