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My Life Thus Far
2008-02-24 07:53:52 (UTC)

Sometimes I Really Don't Want To Be Reminded

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I'm getting tired, so I'd better write now before I get
any more tired and decide not to do it at all.

Snookums has duty today, so it was just the girls and I.
At first I was going to spend it in bed, but it was too
sunny and nice out to waste a day in my dark bedroom. I'll
save it for a rainy/cloudy day. This is Washington, so one
of those can't be too far away.

Annie started getting on my nerves around 2pm, so I sent
her to the park. I don't know why her first instinct on a
sunny day isn't to go to the park, I had to tell her to go
outside, but once I sent her out she didn't want anything
else to do with me or Kiki. Kiki got upset when Annie left
for the park and she didn't get to go, so I had to take
her, too. Which I'd intended to, but I couldn't tell her
that before she had a meltdown because she thought she was
being left out. I don't want to put the burden of watching
Kiki on Annie. Okay, I don't trust Annie to watch Kiki and
the park is about 100 feet from the ocean, so...No. Kiki
had to wait until I was ready to leave, which she didn't
like.

Once we left the house everything was fine. Kiki rode her
Radio Flyer tricycle there, which I had to push because
Kiki doesn't know how to pedal or steer. So, I got my
workout in, aside from the short walk there. Once there, I
was forced to socialize with other parents. I tried to
avoid eye contact and sit on the bench furthest from
everyone else, but Kiki kept putting herself in precarious
situations on the monkey bars. I felt the need to spot
her. This put me in close proximity to a very pregnant
lady helping her too small son play on the jungle gym. She
kept looking at me and I kept avoiding her, but I knew she
was dying to say something. Sure enough, she
started.."What does your shirt say?" I wanted to say none
of your fucking business, but I didn't. I'm wearing one of
my many PINK shirts that has a stupid little comment on it
(Are your legs tired? Because you've been running through
my mind all day). That's when she dove into the pregnancy
questions. How far along are you? What are you having?
Don't you want to know what you're having? Are you having
any more? I wanted to say something rude and walk away,
but that wouldn't have been fair to Kiki, so I didn't. I
lucked out pretty soon after that. She wasn't paying
attention and let her 15 month old son fall 6 feet off the
jungle gym. I felt bad for him, but not for her. He was
fine other than a mouth full of beauty bark, until she
started freaking out, then he started crying. That sent
her running home, so I got out of any more unwanted
conversation. I had to talk to one more mother after that,
but she was pretty mellow and that was okay. She did ask
how far along I was and if I was excited. I just wish
people didn't always bring up the fact that I'm pregnant.
Sometimes I really don't want to be reminded. I can feel
it at all times, I shouldn't have to think about it at all
times, too.

I thought Kiki was going to make it through the day
without any mishaps, but that didn't happen. On the way
home, somehow she managed to tip over her tricycle AND
fall over the handlebars at the same time. I'm not sure
how she did that. I was behind her, pulling Annie's Razor
(scooter) home, when I saw her go down. I saw her head
come down and heard the thud of her face hitting the
ground (asphalt). I didn't freak out, but on the inside I
was preying it wasn't serious or bloody. I didn't have
anything to stop it if it was and we were still a good 500
feet from home. But, when I lifted her off the ground and
waited for the bleeding to start (and the crying to stop),
I only saw a small abrasion on her chin. No split lips or
missing teeth. I felt fortunate. I played it off as no big
deal and she mounted her tricycle a minute later,
completely forgetting her spill.

That was all I really did today. I didn't feel like doing
anything, but I had to take advantage of the nice weather.
The thermometer on the front porch said 57* and it's never
in the sun. That's down right tropical this time of year!
I felt slightly domestic, so I gave my primroses and
potted plants some Miracle Gro. I hope tomorrow is nice,
too. So, Snookums can enjoy it. He was a little bitter
about having duty today.

I think I'll be heading off to bed now. It's almost
midnight. Ciao until tomorrow..I hope. My computer is
acting up a little bit right now. I can't seem to get any
of my e-mails, so I'm hoping it isn't about to go down :(
Keeps telling my it can't connect to the server? Whatever.
I'll hope for the best. If it's not one thing, it's
another..




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