rainy

My heart in a knot
2008-02-18 17:42:21 (UTC)

seeing sean...

Ok so last night was me and seans 3rd night out after work..
it was a Sunday so there was not much to do.. I told him
that but he just didn't want to listen.. anyway-- work ended
around 6:30 but I stayed there with him until about 8:45
while he finished up some work. We tried to find something
to do but there was nothing.

So around 9 he was finished with everything and we decided
to leave..at first we were going to go see a movie, but we
ended up just driving to my side of town and then to CH.

I just think it's so amazing how much things change from the
side of town where I work to where I live.. I noticed it
last night as we were driving around. I guess it's just that
most of everything where I live is brand new, as in most of
it has been around for 3 years or less. --- I think I'm
going to take some pictures of it when I finally get my camera..

So anyway back to my night with sean... we went to CH and we
were driving around looking for signs of life.. we did find
some people hanging out but all we did was walk up and down
the street talking.. Oh yea I forgot to mention one thing.

As we were driving he had got a phone call from the girl on
his myspace page.. I know it was her because when his cell
phone range her name showed up.. anyway he didn't answer
it.. he mumbled to himself that he would call back later...
so I asked him who it was and he told me.. then things got
weird because I was a bit jealous and he was just telling me
that she is his ex and that they are no longer seeing each
other..

It was just one big long story that was not adding up, I'm
just going to have to wait until the next time we go out to
ask him to explain things to me again. Non the less I do
like him.. but not enough to deal with any ex/current
girl-friend drama..

So yea.. I am a bit suspicious for those reasons.. BTW he
knows angel... yea.. that's really weird. I was telling him
the story of angel and how he was married after his phone
call from that girl and then he started to describe him..
and then he was like he knows him and use to hang out with
him.. I was freaked out..if sean is hanging out with people
like angel then that's not good. It just scares me to know
that.. and I just hope that he doesn't still talk to him or
anything or mentions my name to him.


Ok so after that conversation I basically was quite most of
the rest of the evening because I was thinking about a lot
of different things... It wasn't until we got back to my car
that I felt comfortable again.. and that's also were things
got "hot"... LOL yea so basically he was asking me questions
about me being a virgin and everything and then he put his
hands on my inner thigh and upward.. so yea... anyway we
sat and talked about a few different things and then we
checked out each others bodies--- all this was done in a
kind of tiny 4 door car so there was not much room..
although it did work out.

He was just so cute and I couldn't stand it.. I really liked
kissing him and him touching me and all that stuff.. and he
was the most beautiful brown eyes ever.. I will admit-- I
don't really find guys to be that attractive below the waste
but he was acually ok..

so after that we talked about me and how I have low-self
esteem and all that weird stuff.. but it ended nicely...

It had started to rain so we decided to leave.. it was about
12 something when we left-- I didn't really want to go but
it was late and he had to get up early.

Anyway so that was my night with him---- there is more to
tell but not enough time to put in all the details-- I'm
waiting for someone to get here so I can go get another car,
I just cleaned out my old one--- so now I'm just waiting...
I need to be working on my spanish but it almost seems
hopeless. I think I will just stick this one through..

Ok well

until next time...

Laterz




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