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My Life Thus Far
2008-02-16 04:55:39 (UTC)

Exhaustion And Pain

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I have reached new levels of exhaustion and pain. Levels I
never knew myself capable of reaching. I am currently
suffering unimaginable amounts of hurt...and I love it!
Why, you ask? Because I did something today! I
accomplished a goal. I have a few more I'd like to
accomplish, but I'm not so sure they're going to happen
tonight. It's already 8:30pm and there's still so much yet
to be done. I want to sweep, mop and vacuum all the floors
(which is a major undertaking here, in comparison to the
condo, which used to take about an hour to do all three),
clean the cat room, finish making my bed (I bought new
pillows, washed the mattress cover and freshen up my
favorite burgundy sheets to put on it), clean the windows
(which are covered in cat nose prints and Kiki finger
prints) and I also wanted to hang pictures. I'm almost
100% sure that isn't happening tonight. I totally could if
I wanted to, we still don't have a neighbor to the left of
us and we're the end unit, so there isn't anyone to the
right. We're isolated all by ourselves. I just think it's
too much to do in one day, unless I want it to spill into
tomorrow. We'll see. If I can't sleep, then I'll start it.

That's a very impressive list of wishes I've got going,
but you should hear what I actually did today. Even though
Jason is going to go through the roof when he gets home
tomorrow, I feel the pain is worth it. I got Kiki out of
the house like I wanted. We did coffee with Gen and
family, then afterwards I stopped by Linen's N Things
because this morning I saw a commercial on TV that said
all their bed pillows were buy one get one free and we
were in dire need of new pillows. Ours were pretty grungy.
Even washing them didn't help much, so I picked up 4 new
pillows, a step stool (to hang the aforementioned
pictures) and a new broom and dustpan (because Jason used
my indoor broom to sweep the front porch and I've been
grossed out ever since). Kiki started getting a little
antsy, so we left there and headed home. I had wanted to
go to Old Navy to look at some pants for her because she's
outgrowing her 4T's fast (at 33 months old. Amazing). On
the way home I got the brilliant idea to stop by the
Country Nursery over on Seabeck Highway to pick up a
little Spring color for the front porch. I had a plant
graveyard on the second deck in the dining room and I
wanted to replace the plants for Spring. I know Kiki loves
flowers and wagons, so I figured she'd be up for it...and
she was. She had a great time pulling her own little red
wagon around with one little yellow primrose in it. I came
out of there with so much more than a little color. I had
6 primroses, 4 trailing ivy's, a lovely white Heather,
these 2 Japanese perennials that give off pretty little
purple flowers, 2 trailing ground covers (can't remember
their name) and a 20lb bag of organic potting soil.
Getting all that to the car and in the trunk was way more
than I'm supposed to be doing, but I was feeling warm and
active. A feeling I haven't had in awhile.

I spent about 3 hours in the yard. Potting new plants,
bagging the leaves we never did from last fall (3 garbage
bags full), transplanting the primroses and Japanese
thingies into the ground, sweeping and rearranging the
front patio. I also got rid of the plant graveyard on the
second patio and put the trailing ground covers in a big
pot I had left over. I'm hoping it will fill it out and
start trailing down the sides. I love that. Annie came
home from school while I was doing all this and helped me
gather leaves. It was nice spending time with her doing
something other than yelling or nagging at her. It feels
like that's the majority of the communication we have
sometimes.

After we finished, I got the girls and myself cleaned up
and we went to the mall. Tamara wanted me to stop by and
pick up some money for the purse. It was a trip I didn't
necessarily want to make, but I didn't want to turn down
the offer of money. Especially when everyone said she'd
never pay me. So, she gave me $40 with the promise of the
rest when she gets her bonus next week. I hope. I took the
girls to McDonald's for dinner. Which I don't feel guilty
about because they hardly ever get it. It was while I was
ordering their happy meals that I realized that I hadn't
eaten today. All I had was a Caramel Macchiato and a piece
of Kiki's blueberry bar. I didn't want McDonald's, so I
had my usual chicken Vesuvio. I haven't had it in a few
weeks, so it was a welcome treat.

We got home around 8pm. Kiki and Annie went directly to
bed and are fast asleep. I'm debating with myself whether
I want to hit the ground running again, or if I'd rather
wind down. There's so much I want to get done, but my body
isn't cooperating. This frustrates me to no end, but I
know for all the pain I'm feeling right now, it will be
compounded when I wake up tomorrow morning. I'm not
looking forward to that :(

Well, I at least need to go put my bed back together.
Either way I've got to finish that. Ciao.




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