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My Life Thus Far
2008-01-28 03:20:18 (UTC)

This Time Of Convolescence

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I'm feeling very rebellious. I'm supposed to be at the
meeting right now, but I'm just not feeling up to it. I'm
in my pajamas, nice and warm. Cozy in my house. It's just
not happening. If it were an actual shift, that would be
different. Team-building exercises can kiss my ass.
Instead, I'm baking strawberry cheesecake muffins. I know,
I'm so domestic.

Today wasn't all that exciting of a day. It went by almost
as fast as yesterday did. Wasted weekend really, but there
isn't a whole lot I can do about it at the moment. I think
of all the wonderful things I'd like to be doing right now
and I sigh. Maybe someday. Just not today. I can barely
get to the bathroom without having to stop for a break
from the pain, let alone go to the gym or do something fun
like I want to. I'm not going to get upset about it. I
won't be pregnant forever or again (knock on wood). I
should enjoy this time of convolescence. Not. I feel like
I've got some degenerative disease. I'm not getting any
better. Not to mention I feel SO BIG. My doctor is happy
with my weight gain. 12 pounds so far, and I'm over half
way done. I only wanted to gain 20, but I don't know if
that's going to happen. My main goal is to not succumb to
postpartum depression again and gain the addition 30
pounds on top of the pregnancy weight. I only gained 25
pounds with Kiki, it was the 30 postpartum depression
pounds that got me.

Speaking of additional pounds, my muffins are done. Ciao.




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