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My Life Thus Far
2008-01-18 00:44:15 (UTC)

Exactly 20 Weeks

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I'm feeling pretty darn good today. Almost like it's a
special occasion. I'm exactly 20 weeks pregnant today (I
think that's cause enough for celebration), I got off work
early, Snookums got off work early (and cleaned the house
for me, bonus). I'm in a pleasant mood. I'm always tenuous
when it comes to saying I'm "happy", because happiness is
fleeting, but I'm doing okay right now.

I never got around to writing last night. Snookums had
class and got home late (8pm). Right around the time I
would usually be writing, and wanted to just shower and go
to bed. So, I went along with that. I was tired, too. Not
because my day was stressful. The exact opposite, in fact.
Our sound system is broken at work, so the store is eerily
quiet. So quiet in fact, you can hear the mall's music in
the back of the store. I never paid much attention to the
mall music until yesterday and then again today. So, even
though my shift was only 4 hours long (both yesterday and
today), it seemed like an 8 hour shift with no lunch break
yesterday. Today was better. Semi-annual is coming to an
end here within the week, so there was an additional
markdown on sleepwear, panties and bras. The ones on sale
went from 50% off to 75% off. Even I couldn't resist that
with all my money issues. I figured I deserved to spend
the $18.45 I did on a pair of pants (that fit my ever
expanding belly), a cute pair of rhinestone covered Very
Sexy panties (regularly $28.00) and a dress with pockets
on the side that looks like an updated version of a 1950's
maternity smock. I've got some maternity leggings I can
wear over it. It made me feel good to buy something
frivolous, because I haven't been doing too much shopping
lately. So not like me, I know.

I have decided the ONE thing I HAVE to have for myself and
the baby. I was looking at Coach.com to see what's new and
I saw that the diaper bag they always carry, now comes in
BLACK! It's got the optic print in silver, which looks so
nice, I won't mind at all sacrificing my purse for a
diaper bag. It comes with a changing pad and has tons of
pockets, so it's completely functional. I just want to
have something other than the traditional pink or blue
quilted diaper bag standard issue for most parents. I
don't want to sacrificing my sense of style just because
I'm a mom.

Speaking of being a mom. I don't think I've gotten more
attention as far as the belly goes than I've gotten today.
I was in Hallmark (killing time before work) looking at
the Christmas clearance and reading cards, when I
overheard the conversation the two clerks were having at
the register. It was about breastfeeding and how they feel
about it, which honestly I didn't really want to hear, but
being in retail myself, I wanted to tell them that their
conversation was potentially offensive (because they were
talking about how gross it was that a friend breastfed for
18 months and so on). I didn't, though. Not my place. I
found a couple cute cards I liked, so when I went up to
pay, I just knew I wasn't getting out of there without
some comment being made. Sure enough, "You sure are
carrying high, do you know what you're having yet"? I
said "No, and I don't care". Of course at that point, she
had to assert that she feels it's a boy because of the way
my stomach looks. I suppose I am carrying higher than I
did with Annie or Kiki, but that isn't necessarily the
case all the time. Then, she felt it was okay to ask if I
was going to breastfeed, if I'd breastfed my other kids. I
just looked at her and said "Yeah, I did. I have to go to
work now". Then, walked away. Why is it that being
pregnant makes people feel they can ask you anything?
That's so not the case. At least she didn't try to touch
me. I might have punched her in the face. I can't be
responsible for my actions sometimes :)

My house smells like baby powder and I'm not sure why...
Kiki doesn't use baby powder anymore. Not just a little
bit either, but really strong. I think I'll go
investigate. Ciao.




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