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My Life Thus Far
2008-01-04 05:18:19 (UTC)

A State Of Rebellion

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I've been in a stage of rebellion the past few days. I
didn't feel like writing. I've grown tired of writing
about the mundane dailiness of my life. I don't know if I
desire there to be more interesting things going on, or if
I just wish I was more interested in what's going on.
Welcome to the conundrum that is me.

There isn't anything to update you on. Even though I
haven't written in days. Just look back on any other day
that I worked and did nothing else and it would be much
the same. I don't know what to do. How do I become more
engaged in my life? The second verse is the same as the
first. Every morning I open my eyes and it's the same day
all over again. Occasionally there are anomalies that make
it slightly different, but not by much. I need something.
I wish I knew what it was.

Today was the first day of semi-annual. It wasn't nearly
as chaotic as last June's or last January's sales. When I
got there, the store wasn't even crowded and we missed
several of our segments by the time I left. We were way
under transactions throughout the day. I don't care that
much. I won't lose sleep over it. It's something to think
about. Something to take my mind off of my sinking
depression. This isn't a good sign. Why can't I get rid of
this depression? I don't understand.

I'm going to take a bath. I bought some Raspberry Cosmo
Insatiable products on sale ($2.99 a bottle) and I'm
looking forward to using them. I need to relax some. My
feet are killing me. Ciao for now. Oh yeah, and Happy New
Year.




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