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My Life Thus Far
Life Can Be So Unfair
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Surprise, surprise. I'm awake. This insomnia has got to
end at some point. I need to sleep well at night. I don't
have the luxury of staying in bed all day. I blame my
sleeplessness now on Jason. Around 3:30pm, I had a
headache so he brought me some Tylenol. Turns out it was
Tylenol PM. So, I passed out for 6 hours straight. Time I
should have been awake, so I could be asleep now, but no.
I already got my night's sleep. By tomorrow morning, I
should be ready to go back to bed. Only downside is,
that's when I have to be up and out for work. Life can be
so unfair. Maybe I'll just take a couple more PM's just to
make it through the night (asleep). Then tomorrow I should
be back on a normal sleep schedule. We can only hope.
Last night I sent Ron a message on myspace with a link to
the entry I wrote on Friday night (well, Saturday morning)
when I got home. While we were at the club, he followed me
to the bar and tried to weasel out of me how I was
feeling. I really couldn't put it into words and kind of
left him hanging. So, I figured the most honest answer I
could offer him was something I'd shared with my diary.
It's the only place on the planet I can be totally open
and honest. With both myself and others. I know he's read
it, but he hasn't responded yet, so I don't know how he
feels about it. He probably needs time to process. I'm in
no great hurry for his reply. I've spoken my peace and
that's all that really mattered to me.
Helena called today and talked with Jason. I guess she's
coming to visit in December, too. So, I'll have to
pleasantly endure back-to-back in-laws. It's not that I
don't like them (okay, they kind of rub me the wrong way).
It's just that I don't like being forced to be social and
happy and stuff like that. If I'm feeling bitchy that day,
I just want to roll with that. Not have to adjust my
behavior. Sue will be here from the 13th to the 18th, then
Helena comes on the 19th. I think she's only staying for a
day or two. So, really it's only about a week out of my
life. I'm sure I can handle it. Besides, what are the
holidays all about if you're not being put out by your
family?
I think I'll go take those PM's now. Hopefully sleep comes
quick and easy. Ciao for now.
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