yes i'm a bitch just not urs

U blew it. .
2007-09-20 07:39:56 (UTC)

sleepy ramblings.

I've been working my butt off. Major o/t this last week.
My days are all blending. I had the chance to hook up with
the one random who won't leave me alone. I told him we
could just kiss. Which is all i wanna do. But he wasn't
taking me seriously. I would like to just kiss. Its so
stupid that once you give them (them being males)sex. They
aren't satisfied with just kissing..

No...i was just thinking that i wish that i could go back
and not been so pro·mis·cu·ous. But i can't. So i won't
let it bother me.

I got another bridal magazine. My wedding was originally
on oct31. then we pushed it back to november 17 i think.
Now we pushed it back to indefinitely as we try to get to
know one another better. The whole thing just depresses me.
I love him. I really do. I just don't know that he feels
the same. I still suspect things. I have this nagging
feeling that he's been unfaithful.

I'm lonely. I'm feeling unloved. I need reassurance. I
would like to just slow it down again and not have sex with
somebody. As weird as it sounds these days i would like to
innocently date somebody. I want to kiss. Is that so wrong.

So i told the random that i didn't want to have any sex.
But i would love to just kiss for awhile. but nothing ever
came of that...so here i sit....in all honesty i don't think
that would have gone through with it if he had went for it....

hey....wanna read something ....
here is the definition for promiscuous.....something i was
once...but not so much any more.


pro·mis·cu·ous /prəˈmɪskyuəs/ Pronunciation Key - Show
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–adjective
1. characterized by or involving indiscriminate mingling or
association, esp. having sexual relations with a number of
partners on a casual basis.

2. consisting of parts, elements, or individuals of
different kinds brought together without order.

3. indiscriminate; without discrimination.

4. casual; irregular; haphazard.


goodnight now.
=)




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