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My Life Thus Far
2007-09-14 04:08:27 (UTC)

All Sexed Out

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People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light
from within.

... Elizabeth Kübler-Ross

I don't think I mentioned that Snookums had duty last
night. I'll give you one guess as to who I spent my
evening with...Figure it out yet? Just to ease your mind,
NO I did not sleep with him. We did nothing inappropriate
(except kiss, which might be inappropriate). We simply
talked. I was hoping he'd finally see my situation from my
perspective. I don't think he does. I think he still
believes that what we had was reality. It wasn't real. I
wish it was, but it wasn't.

There isn't much to write about today. It was much like
every other day. I had coffee with Gen and went to work. I
saw Snookums for a little bit. He got off work early, I
went to work at 12:15pm, so we crossed paths for about
half an hour.

Work was work. I'm feeling a little emotional today, so
for some reason, dealing with management was hard. I
didn't feel like being told what to do. I don't usually
care, but for some reason I did today. My boobies are
hurting, too. So, that doesn't make me any happier :( I
think Snookums came into work about 4 times today. Which
is sad, because I only worked 5 hours. My co-workers were
starting to wondering what on Earth he was doing.

Ron called me today. Snookums didn't take kindly to that,
so now he's got my sim card and I've got his. So far it
hasn't been a problem, until I need a number that's on my
card and not on his. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I
get to it. Because of the phone call, Snookums has been
hyper sensitive to any contact Ron tries to make with me.
He waited all day for Ron to call again (but he didn't
thank goodness). I think that's part of the reason why he
stuck so close to me today. Then, to make matters worse
Ron left me a message on myspace, which Snookums just
happened to see when I went to check my messages. Bad
timing on my part, I'm sure. So, Snookums wrote him a
nasty message and Ron in turn wrote one back. I truly feel
like I'm being fought over and it's not fun. I can't for
the life of me understand why either one of them are
putting themselves through this over me. It's not like I'm
some amazing woman, with the power to captivate men. I'm
pretty much your average woman with more than a little
emotional baggage. Yet, here I am in a love triangle. Both
would be better off without me. Neither one sees it that
way.

I'm going to bed now. It's still early, which means I can
get more sleep. After Snookums handles his business of
course. Maybe his libido will calm down soon. I hope. I'm
getting all sexed out. Ciao.




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