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My Life Thus Far
2007-07-29 02:48:56 (UTC)

I'm Just Going To Live...

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Recovery is realizing that what seems like a big deal
today may be more manageable tomorrow...

Understand that time is on your side! You don't just have
the next twenty-four hours to make things right. The truth
is... you've got all the rest of your life.

Douglas Pagels

What if 24 hours is all you've got? What then? I'm not one
of those people that thing everyday is my last. At least
not all the time. So, I do kind of agree with Mr. Pagels.
Nothing is ever really solved in a day. Everything takes
time to resolve. But, it's helpful not having to
concentrate all that resolution into one day. I'm just
going to live today like tomorrow will never come! Not
really, but it sounded good!

Even though I didn't really accomplish anything today, it
still felt like a good day because I got up out of bed,
got dressed and didn't lounge around like a slug on a log.
I didn't feel sorry for myself today and I didn't dwell on
how much I miss Snookums or how I wish I had done things
differently while he's been gone. Those are the most
prevalent thoughts that plague my mind at times. They
didn't haunt me today. That's always good!

Debbie (my landlady) stopped by with one of her other
agent friends to take a look at the condo. After last
night I was in no mood to do a ceiling to floor cleaning,
so I didn't. I vacuumed up the golfish crackers and
granola bar pieces Kiki had strewn all over the floor, but
that was about it. I was in the process of doing that when
she knocked on the door.

I was worried about what she'd think of the place. I've
been keeping it tidy lately, but I haven't done a deep
cleaning in a while (washed walls, cleaned corners with a
toothbrush, etc). Her first reaction when she walked in
was "Wow, this place looks way cuter with you living in
it. How do you keep it so clean with 2 kids?" My answer
was easy. "I clean constantly." The majority of my time is
spent walking behind Kiki cleaning up her messes and
getting on Annie about her's. That's what I did for the
most part today. So, they spent about 10 minutes looking
around. He gave her advice on what she should do and I
just watched them. After they were done, they left. But
not before Debbie informed me that she's putting the condo
on the market and that people would be calling me to set
up walkthroughs. I'm going to have strange people walking
through my home. Even when I'm not home. I don't think I
like that, but what choice do I have. It's my home, but
it's not my house. As soon as Snookums gets home, we're
going on the housing list. I'm hoping we can get some kind
of speedy placement since our landlady is selling out from
under us. We have until February to be out of here. So,
that's a good chunk of time. Not 30 days or something
ridiculous like that.

I need to go get ready. Selena will be here in less than
half an hour. So, in that span of time I need to get the
girls to bed and get myself beautiful. And then there's a
knock on the door. I guess I don't have 30 minutes. Ciao!




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