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My Life Thus Far
2007-07-21 09:27:53 (UTC)

Coffee, Diet Soda and Diet Pills

*****

In every event, in every circumstance, we have a choice of
perspective. Faced with difficulty, we can choose between
disappointment and curiosity as our mind-set. The choice
is ours. Will we focus on what we see as lacking or will
we look for the new good that is emerging? In every
moment, however perilous or sorrowful it may feel, there
is the seed of our greater happiness, greater expansion,
and greater abundance.

Julia Cameron

What a fabulous day today was! I don't know what made the
cloud of sorrow lift off of me, but it's gone and I'm
loving it! Gotta love the exaggerated highs and lows of
severe depression.

My day started out lovely. I went out on the patio to
check the weather (something I do most mornings, because I
don't trust the weather channel). I sat down in a chair
and looked out over the water, at the mountains, the
forest and the decommissioned carriers in the ship yard
(which look much more impressive from a distance. They're
dilapidated up close). I heard chirping. Little baby
chirps and they were very close. Back in March I put a
birdfeeder full of peanut pellets up, but there were no
takers. Not that I could tell, but lately the level has
been dropping. Anyhow, I looked up to the direction of the
chirps and sure enough, there were two baby birds pecking
away at the feeder. The bird feeder is about 3 feet away
from my head, but they weren't scared. They chirped and
ate and didn't even notice I was there. It was a lovely
moment and started my day out on a happy note.

For the first time in MONTHS, literally, I hit the gym!
Now that the Lincoln is gone it's much more quiet (that
didn't stop the few guys that felt the urge to hit on me
from doing so, but it was better). I started out slow. I
don't want to be all sore and stiff in the morning (which
I will be anyway, more on that later) so, I just did a
little treadmill, a little elliptical and some strength
training. All the same stuff I usually do, but in smaller
doses. I was surprised that even though I've been slacking
off for so long, I can still lift the same weight I did
before. I haven't lost any muscle. I just packed 20 pounds
on top of it. That's okay though. I've lost 6 pounds this
week, so I'm well on my way to getting rid of it. Coffee,
diet soda and diet pills are very effective. Not a good
long-term approach, but I'm on a tight schedule and need
to drop the pounds pronto. Snookums will be home in 1
month, 1 day, 19 hours, 58 minutes and 23, 22,
21...seconds (I've got a myspace countdown on my profile).
Time is of the essence.

After the gym, it was work. An easy 4 hour shift. I did
find out that Tamara made me a recertification lead for
the meeting this Sunday (which I'd had no plans of
attending because of sitter issues). Now I have to go
because as she put it only "top talent" are able to
recertify. Recertification basically means making sure
that all the staff know how to do a bra fitting, know the
features and benefits of each bra. The names of all the
bras, all the sizes they come in and how to utilize the
wardrobing center. Easy stuff, but for some of the girls
it seems to be a challenge. Every 6 months everyone has to
be recertified. There's too many for management to do in
any reasonable amount of time, so she delegates. I'll have
to figure something out, but I'm not sure what. The nice
part is for an hour of my time on a Sunday morning I get a
free bra of my choice and a free garden product of my
choice. I love the perks of this job. Because I so need
another bra.

Tonight is Friday and you know what that means...CLUB
NIGHT! At first I wasn't going to go because I couldn't
find anyone to go with me. Ron had a date (thank God, long
story). My girl acquaintances (I see them at the club
only, I wouldn't call them friends) didn't know if they
wanted to go, so it looked like I was going to be on my
own. Selena suggested I go just to see if I run into
someone I know and if not I could always come home. So, I
did that. The first hour sucked. I sat by myself sipping a
drink I didn't like (because I hate the taste of alcohol.
I ended up dumping it down the drain in the bathroom
because I didn't want to hurt the bartenders feelings. I'm
such a dork) and counting the minutes until it was time to
give up and go home. Then Konomi walked in. Konomi is a
friend of Ron's who is pretty much the life of the party.
She's vibrant, confident, and independent. Just my kind of
girl. So, things looked up from there. By midnight, we
were on the dance floor working up a sweat and trying to
keep guys from grinding on us. I don't know why guys think
that when they see a group of girls dancing together, it's
okay to come up on one of them. You need to ask permission
and no one is getting it from me. I danced with Jay, the
baby-daddy of my friend Shannell, but only because I know
him and Snookums likes him. He wouldn't try anything. So,
as you could tell by my righting, I'm completely sober,
which debunks that myth that the designated driver can't
have fun. I didn't drink anything but water the rest of
the night. Alcohol has too many calories. Which would ruin
my wonderful progress this week.

Now I'm ready for bed. I'm debating whether I want to take
a shower now or in the morning. I did get pretty sweaty,
but I'm so tired. I can always change the sheets and just
shower in the morning. Yeah, I'll do that. It may be
gross, but it's my bed and I'm not sharing it with anyone
(at the moment), so if I stink I'm the only one smelling
it. Ciao and goodnight.




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