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My Life Thus Far
2007-07-18 06:24:44 (UTC)

THE SPELL HAS BEEN BROKEN!

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We create our reality with our minds. If we want to change
our reality, then it's time for us to change our minds. We
do this by choosing to think and speak in new and positive
ways. I learned a long time ago that if I would change my
thinking, I could change my life. Changing our thinking is
really dropping our limitations. As we drop our
limitations, we begin to be aware of the infinity of life
all around us. We begin to understand that we are already
perfect, whole and complete. Each day gets easier.

Louise L. Hay

This passage is good. Really good. I'm thinking I might
even do a web search of Louise L. Hay and see if she's got
any more of these tidbits of wisdom floating around
cyberspace.

THE SPELL HAS BEEN BROKEN! FINALLY, I had a good day. A
not just okay, not just average, not just getting by kind
of day, but a truly GOOD day. I wonder if it had anything
to do with me taking a Wellbutrin last night (like I
should have been doing for the past 3 weeks). I don't want
to give a drug credit for my good day, so I'm just going
to be thankful that it was good and not analyze why it
went well.

This morning Annie had her first appointment with the
child psychiatrist (the medicine guy). He put her on a
slow-release, low dose form of Ridalin called Concerta.
Unlike anti-depressants that take weeks to work, ADHD
drugs take about an hour to start working. I wasn't with
her most of the day, she had a field trip at daycare, but
I gave her one as soon as we got them from the pharmacy
and asked her caregiver to let me know how it worked. If
one pill doesn't work, I'm suppose to up the dose an 18mg
pill each day until it does. When I picked her up, she
already seemed more calm. She wasn't jumping around as
much, she seemed focused. Her caregiver said it was a
major improvement from the usual Annie. This evening was
fabulous. I didn't have to raise my voice at her once. She
did what I asked her to, when I asked her to and that was
that. No attitude, no yelling, no torturing Kiki. It was
bliss. I think that alone may be why my day has gone so
well.

I was very productive after Annie's appointment. I was
determined not to waste my day doing God knows what. I
stopped by the Exchange (and came out with 2 pairs of
really cute shoes. Timberland sandals and Roxy wedges!)
and then the Commissary. I got my grocery shopping done,
got the house cleaned (including taking everything out of
the fridge, including the shelving and cleaning it top to
bottom), every stitch of laundry is put away and right now
I'm in the process of putting highlights in my hair. After
I'm done with that, I think I'll go to bed. I've
accomplished enough today. I didn't do a lot of things,
but I did big things. Time consuming things.

I've done well with staying on plan as far as my eating
goes. No binging today. Tomorrow I'm throwing myself back
into the gym thing. Now that Tamara has hired some girls,
I'm not working as much and there's just no excuse for not
going. I need to get my figure back for Snookums. I may
not get back down to 140, but I'm shooting for 150.
Whatever it takes. I know what it takes, so all it
requires is that I DO IT. I'm feeling ready.

I'd better go check a strand to make sure I'm not
bleaching my hair white. That would be bad. Ciao!




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