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My Life Thus Far
2007-07-03 05:30:37 (UTC)

I Sense Some Pessimism

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We bring about new beginnings by deciding to bring about
endings. To renew your life you must be willing to change,
to make an effort to lave behind the things that
compromise your wholeness. The universe rushes to support
you whenever you attempt to take a step forward. Any time
you seek to be in harmony with life, to make yourself feel
more whole, all the blessings that flow from God stream
toward you, to bolster you and encourage you, because all
life is biased on the side of supporting itself.

Susan L. Taylor

I didn't like that passage so much. It was religious and
we all know how I feel about religion...

I'm sore. I hadn't realized how sore my body was until I
got to work today and squatted down to put some Beauty
Rush eye shadow in it's over-stock cabinet. I think
I "pop, lock and dropped it" one too many times this
weekend. Oh well, it's the most exercise I've been getting
recently. Although, Gen did point out this morning that
I've got just enough time to hop back on that 6 week body
makeover thing before Snookums gets home. I could most
definitely stand to lose 30 pounds. All the meds they have
me on have completely obliterated my obsessive compulsive
tendencies to latch on to a routine to the point of
insanity just to achieve a goal. Now I don't give a shit
about anything and nothing really matters. I don't think
that was the effect they were going for either. I'd rather
have my insanity back than to feel even more weird.
Jittery and sleepy at the same time. It doesn't feel
right. That's how I feel physically on top of the not
caring about anything.

I don't really have anything to talk about. I'm tired of
giving the rundown about my day, when it's the same damn
thing I did the day before and the day before that and if
you rewound back a few months, it would be the same thing
then, too. If you want to know how my day was, or what I
did, pick any other weekday in the past 8 months and it'll
match up perfectly.

I sense some pessimism in my writing. That means it's time
for bed. Maybe a good night's sleep will help dislodge the
stick from my ass. Although I doubt it. Ciao and
goodnight.




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