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My Life Thus Far
2007-07-02 04:36:04 (UTC)

A Moment Of Clarity

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Resolve to be thyself; and know, that he who finds
himself, loses his miser.

Matthew Arnold

I didn't write last night because I went out again. Same
as last weekend. Selena (my babysitter now, because I'm
willing to pay her an arm and a leg to watch tv, read and
surf the net) came over at 9pm and listened in on the
girls while I went to the club down the street. Ron went
with me as my chaperone, because I'm fairly sure that it
wouldn't be a positive outcome if I were to go alone.
Snookums knows I've been going out on weekends (with Ron)
and although he doesn't entirely like the idea of
me "clubbing", he isn't telling me not to, either. Which
is good, because I'm be far more inclined to do it MORE
often if he told me I couldn't.

I didn't drink much last night. Half of a Long Island iced
tea (which has no iced tea in it, funny enough) and half
of a shark bite (which I have no clue as to what it has in
it, but it's yummy). I didn't feel blitzed, but I had a
good buzz going. I looked up at the strobing lights coming
from the ceiling and amidst the loud, thumping music,
bustle of people and their talking and singing. I had a
moment of clarity. "I'm out of the house, doing adult
things, with other adults...THIS IS FUN!" Yes, for me that
was clarity. I danced. I drank (albeit a little) and I
talked with other adults. I'll be honest, it wasn't as
much fun as it was on my birthday, because then it was all
new and shiny, but I still had a good time. Thankfully, I
didn't wake up hung over this morning. I learned my lesson
from last weekend.

Snookums sent me his itinerary yesterday. He'll be flying
into SeaTac on Hawaiian Airlines flight #HA22 at 10pm on
August 22. FINALLY! An end is in sight! Of course, I can't
get my hopes up too much, because then it might not
happen, but it's at least likely to happen.

Today wasn't much of a day. I spent it lounging in bed,
because I couldn't think of anything better to do. I
wasn't hungover from last night, I didn't feel bad, but
resting was still nice. I had a store meeting at 6pm
tonight. So, I went to that. It wasn't anything important.
Just a sneak peak at the new styles we're getting in PINK.
For our troubles, we were given a free pair of PINK flip-
flops. I suppose it was worth the gas it took to drive to
Silverdale on a Sunday evening.

I'm going to sign off now. I ordered pizza and it's here.
So, I need to go eat it before I change my mind and
actually start giving a crap about how fat I am. Right,
like that's going to happen. Ciao.




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