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My Life Thus Far
2007-06-18 05:23:58 (UTC)

Let The Experiment Begin

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The natural healing force within each one of us is the
greatest force in getting well.

Hippocrates

I feel like a villain. Like, I'm someone that should be
hated. A vile human being that no one can like, befriend
or spent time around. Why do I feel this way about myself?
Because I'm anti-social and generally don't like people. I
think others can sense this. Why am I writing this now?
Because it seems that the only feedback I get lately is
others telling me I'm selfish, wrong about something, or
spoiled. I'm sure everyone has those kinds of feelings.
They just don't make them public to the scrutiny of
others. Maybe telling my nay-sayers to fuck off is a
little harsh, so I'll just hope their curiosity leads them
back to my diary where they can read it in this entry.

My day was BORING. BORING, BORING, BORING. I had nothing
to do other than sit around, watch tv and wait for bedtime
to come. Now it's here and I'm not sure if I'm tired
enough to fall asleep. I've got a bottle of wine in the
fridge that's just been chilling there (pardon the pun)
for weeks, so I cracked that open and poured me a glass,
but I'm not sure how it'll affect the medications I'm on.
I'm sure one glass couldn't hurt and it'll definitely help
me fall asleep. But how will I be in the morning. I don't
know. So, I'll figure it out the hard way and drink the
wine, take the pills and see what I'm like in the morning.
Luckily I don't work tomorrow, so if this experiment
doesn't go well, I can always crawl back into bed and
sleep it off. Let the experiment begin.




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