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My Life Thus Far
2007-04-29 05:11:25 (UTC)

Expect The Lows

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I knew it was too good to be true. All day I felt great.
High as a kite. Then, just as quickly as it came, it left
and I was a sniveling, crying lump. Full out sobbing. Why?
Because ABC decided to put on Pearl Harbor out of nowhere
and that movie irrationally reminds me of Snookums, whom
I'm missing very much right now. I miss him all the time,
but an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and despair
washed over me about two hours ago and I just can't shake
it. Enough so that I regretted not letting him come home
after all and you know how against that idea I was. The
doctor said it would take awhile for my hormones to all
come back down to normal levels, but this is ridiculous.
How can I be so happy one minute and then hit rock bottom
the next? All because a movie that makes me sad comes on
tv? This just goes to show me, when it comes to highs and
lows, take the highs when they come. Enjoy them, but
expect the lows.

All of my laundry is washed, but none of it is put away. I
hate putting laundry away. I'd rather scrub the toilet
with my toothbrush than put my laundry away. Okay, maybe
not, but I really hate putting laundry away. Maybe
tomorrow when I'm feeling better. If I'm feeling better.
God, I hate my insanity. Why can't I just be stable?

I'm going to eat ice cream... Right from the container.
Ciao.




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