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My Life Thus Far
2007-03-01 06:52:27 (UTC)

It Won't Be Long Before The Panties Are Flying!

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I think I'm getting sick. Yet again. My voice is slowly
becoming weaker and weaker. I have no idea why I've been
more ill in the past two months than I've been in the past
two years, but it's getting really annoying. Maybe karma
is trying to tell me I talk too much. Apparently I'm not
getting the message.

I had a good workout this morning. I really started
getting into it and before I knew it, unlike any other day
over the last couple of weeks. I'm so not motivated like I
once was. I miss it. I really do. I lack motivation to do
so many things I used to have the will and desire to do. I
need to make an appointment to see my doctor. I'm pretty
sure my meds aren't working anymore. The only thing is,
I'm too depressed to even make the phone call. I'm on auto
pilot and anything outside the realm of my ordinary life,
is too much effort. Phone calls I don't want to make,
cleaning I don't want to do, errands I don't want to run.
All of it can wait. At least until I'm feeling chipper
again.

I could sense a great deal of tension at work today. None
of it was centered around me, but I can see that people
are being watched. I can also see that certain people are
falling short of the mark when it comes to performance.
Tamara is doing the mass interviews again, so I know the
next rash of new hires should be coming through any day
now. Two girls named Joy and Casey have been added to the
schedule, but they don't have any hours yet. Finally, I
won't be considered one of the "new girls" although, I
haven't been called that since before the holidays. I feel
confident that I've found my place and I've already been
told that I'm being kept on, so I'm just going to continue
with my business and watch the chaos unfold around me.
Because it won't be long before the panties are flying!

Speaking of panties, Jeremy has reared his ugly head back
into my life. He wants to come over this weekend to smoke
weed and do...you know...it. Of course I said no, because
as tempting as it may sound, when it starts to feel like a
possibility, I get all scared and chicken out. I don't
think I'm brave enough to do anything. Not to mention I
feel great love and respect for Snookums and I can't do it
to him. Jeremy will just have to find himself another
piece of ass, because this one is taken. It also helps
that Helena is coming into town this weekend and I won't
be able to entertain him. I never thought I'd actually be
glad she came for a visit.

Last night, I finally got all the laundry finished. I'm
feeling very pleased with myself about it. Although, there
are still things to be done in the house. The floors and
the kitchen to be precise. I don't feel like doing them
tonight. I think I'll go to bed early (or at least, on
time) instead. Kiki has therapy in the morning and I don't
want to be nodding off like I almost did last week! Ciao.




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