Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
My Niche and Body Dysmorphia
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For the most part, I'm not feeling too bad right now. This
morning I would have begged to differ, but right now I'm
doing okay. I couldn't tell you what changed my
perspective, but I'm not going to question it.
Work was great today. I felt really good and for the most
part I was in control. Tamara spent most of my shift on a
conference call, so I was basically in control of myself
and Selena. Selena's been at VS 3 months longer than me,
but for some reason, still doesn't know how to do
anything. She's horrible at credit, can't do a bra
fitting, doesn't greet people when they come in and
doesn't have the best people skills. I like her just fine,
but she was starting to get on my nerves. I might as well
have been out there by myself, because she kept passing
clients off to me because she couldn't find what they were
looking for or didn't know what to do. Jenny (another
manager who came on half way through my shift) noticed my
frustration and whispered to me "Don't worry. This won't
be going on much longer". There was really only one way to
take that. Selena isn't making the cut come evaluation
time. Evaluations have already started and I know that
this means people are going to be let go. My horoscope
told me that there would be upheaval at work and it would
be chaotic, but I wasn't to fear because there was going
to be a promotion in it for me. I don't put much stock in
horoscopes, but I can't help but wish this one will be
true. I think I'm good at my job and I love everybody
there. I think I've found my niche.
I got my Vegan Essentials order today! I was a little
bummed, though. I ordered 3 shirts. One that
says "Vegetarianism. Wish you were here", another
says "Save a life give blood. Go veg, save 95 more" and
the last one just says "Vegetarian" down the side with a
big carrot on it. They're cute, but just to be safe I got
larges and they're all REALLY large. I've got to get over
this body dysmorphia. Shopping is hard when you think
you're so much bigger than you are. I'm not a 12-14
anymore, why am I still buying larges? I just don't
understand myself.
Okay. I'm done writing for now. I need to go write
Snookums, then I'm going to finish up laundry. Gen came
over today while I was at work and helped me out with the
pile on the rocking chair. I really need to woman-up and
finish the rest. I'm such a lazy ass sometimes. Goodness.
Ciao.
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