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My Life Thus Far
I'm Drifting
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If I had 5 star days, today would be one of them, but
since Snookums isn't home, no day can be deserving of my
highest praise. So, we'll just leave it at 4 stars and
call it a really good day. This entry will be quick. It's
already late and I desperately need more than 3 hours
sleep tonight. I don't know why I do that to myself, but I
can't do it tonight. Kiki has therapy tomorrow morning and
I was late last week. I do not want to be late tomorrow. I
don't want my irresponsibility to affect Kiki.
I had a good workout this morning. Having the Ipod really
did make things go by faster. I only put songs on it that
I really like and that made the time go by faster. I just
spent an hour searching through the millions of songs on
Itunes, looking for more to download. I found 10 more. I
love this little machine so much. I can't believe I lived
so long without one! Sometime this week when I get the
chance, I'm going to get my Snookums one. He said he
didn't want one, but he's since changed his mind. The
boredom is getting to him, I think. Not to mention he's
trying to lose weight to. Something to do on the treadmill
is always helpful.
Guess what happened to me today? I ran into my Aunt
Christina and Uncle Nunzio at Wal-mart. Yeah, not exactly
what I'd expected when I ran in for diapers and socks, but
it was nice talking to them. We exchanged numbers and
hopefully Aunt Christina gets up the nerve to call me. She
always says she will, but has yet to do so.
I got a letter in the mail from The Department of Social
and Health Services. Ken (my stepfather) has disappeared.
Ironic how right around the same time mom vanishes again,
so does he. Along with the child support he's supposed to
be giving Annie, but hasn't in over 3 months. During his
trial he said he had a large sum of money set aside for
Annie, if that's the case, then where is it? She needed
socks tonight. I don't recall anyone but Snookums paying
for those. Oh well, the state will find him if he's still
here and if he's not, he's in even more trouble for
leaving the state. He's not allowed to at this point.
Snookie called tonight. This time our phone conversation
was much more fun. We laughed and chatted like we would
have if he were in the room with me. It was nice. I have
to remind myself that even though he is in Iraq, he's
okay, he's not in immediate danger and he's still capable
of laughing and being happy. I'm too serious about this, I
think. He's going to be okay. God, if anything happens to
that ship, I'm going to lose it.
I need to go to bed now. My eyelids are getting heavier
and heavier and I don't think what I'm writing makes sense
anymore. I'm delirious! I'm drifting...Ciao and goodnight.
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