rainy

My heart in a knot
2007-01-18 23:46:43 (UTC)

Nothing!

So I haven't heard anything from mel ever since I told him I
wouldn't be a good idea if I gave him the url to my journal,
he must be upset about that and doesn't want to say anything
to me... I'm really worried about him not saying anything at
all to me!!! I just wish that he would at least say how he
is feeling.

Anyway... this Friday ...(tomorrow) I told him I would tell
him the "truth"... I don't honestly plan on telling him the
whole truth... well I don't know yet what I am going to tell
him. I have two planes on what I may do... I may 1) tell the
truth with out reviling my true identity or 2) lie about
something that would cause us to never be able to meet.

It's a hard decision because I want to be completely honest,
but then again I don't want him to be mad and upset and hate
me forever!!! I mean this could be pretty serious. Yesterday
I almost deleted myself again... I didn't want to do that
because then if I came back a 3 time he would be upset and
suspicious of me forever.

No... I don't want to lose him, but deep down I know that
this can't last forever, although I wish it could...


xoxoxo


Laterszzzzzz




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