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My Life Thus Far
2007-01-12 07:34:01 (UTC)

The Changes I Know Are Coming

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I was lonely today. I spent a couple hours with Gen, but
after that, I was very lonely. Another duty night, leaves
me by myself. I'm getting a taste of what life will be
like after Snookums leaves and I didn't really like it.
Reality is starting to settle in and I'm not ready for the
changes I know are coming.

The weather is acting up again. Snow, below freezing
temperatures, ice. All very uncharacteristically
Washington weather. Because of it, Annie started school
late again today. Two hours. So, my day started late. I
was on my way to the gym when Gen called and asked if I
wanted to go to Starbucks. I had planned on calling her
after the gym, but since she called first, I figured I've
got 8 months to go to the gym.

Gen was watching the kids she nanny's for and eventually
had to take them home, so I did what I do best. I went
shopping. All in all, I spent $25, because I was too sad
to even do that right. I stopped in Best Buy to look at
Ipods and then Old Navy to check out the sale racks. I
must have wandered around Old Navy for about 2 hours,
because when I looked out the front windows, it was
completely dark.

I ran into Shannell at Old Navy. She's another friend I'm
horrible about keeping in contact with. I guess in the 2
months since I spoke to her last, she broke up with Jay
(Malakai's father) and started dating this other guy named
Matt (who is pretty cute, but very rough around the
edges). He seems nice enough, but has this ruggedness
about him. I can't put my finger on it, but since I'm not
dating him, I don't have to. She looks like she's lost a
little weight and seems to be happier, so more power to
her. I always thought she and Jay made a great couple and
Jay was such a good father to his son. I hate break-ups.

Anyway, so now I'm writing in my diary, because I'm
avoiding what I really need to be doing. Kiki tore the
house apart when we got home this evening, so I need to
clean that up. I need to pay our bills so I know how much
spending money we've got. I don't want to, but it must be
done. So, I'd better get to it. Ciao.




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