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My Life Thus Far
2007-01-01 06:44:21 (UTC)

I'm Such A Pessimist

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Still not such a great day. I'm just not in a great mood.
I don't know what caused the funk. I don't know what will
make it go away. I just know I'm not pleased with life at
the moment. The crazy thing is, there's no reason for me
to feel this way. I went back and read my New Year's entry
from last year and it was so optimistic and happy. This
was PRE-antidepressants, PRE-wonderful job, PRE-getting in
contact with BOTH my father and my mother. You'd think I'd
have so much to be thankful for this year, but instead I'm
sitting here feeling like shit. Why? Let's chalk it up to
PMS, because I have no better excuse. I think I'm too far
off my usual schedule. Once I get back on it, I'll
probably start feeling better.

Speaking of PMS, I think my period will be coming on soon.
I feel some unrest in my abdominal region. I can't tell if
it's gas or cramps, so I'm shooting for cramps. It feels
pretty deep to be gas. I've decided that a baby really
isn't what I want right now. Maybe in the future, but the
timing sucks right now. I sure as hell picked a shitty
time to figure that one out, huh? The damage is done,
either way. So, I take what I get.

Wanna know what I did to ring in the new year? I cleaned.
Laundry, scrubbing floors (down on hands and knees),
beating out rugs and removing fur from furniture. It was
fun. So much fun. Okay, I'm lying, but the house really
needed it. With me working so much this month and Snookums
being genderly incapable of performing a thorough
cleaning, it was up to me to make up for the 4 deep
cleanings the house missed this past month. Man, it was
dirty. I couldn't spend one more day here. So, it
had to be done. I guess that made me feel a little
better :). See, a smile.

I think I'll go be unhappy on the couch. Only an hour and
20 minutes until I can drink sparkling cider and go to
bed. I'm such a pessimist. Ciao.

P.S. I just farted. The pain is gone. I guess it was just
gas after all. Shows how much I know. I can't tell gas
from menstruation.




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