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My Life Thus Far
2006-12-26 06:03:04 (UTC)

Spongy Nerf Balls

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I can't say this was the best Christmas I've ever had, but
it didn't suck. The girls had a great time. My father's
sister (my Aunt Debbie) sent the girls a huge box of toys
from Tennessee. Simple toys (balls and baby dolls for
Kiki, yarn and beads for crafts and Barbies for Annie)
that the girls loved, almost more than the high tech,
expensive toys Snookums and I bought them. Kiki has been
throwing the little spongy nerf balls all over the place
all day and Annie has made about a hundred beaded
bracelets. I'm glad they had a good time.

Snookums and I didn't do much this Christmas. He bought me
the new Coach bag and crocodile wallet. Not to mention I
shop for myself better than anyone else can. So, I'm good
and he wants the Special Edition Red Ipod Nano (the one
that benefits AIDS research), but it's currently out of
stock. So, he didn't get it for Christmas. He took too
long making up his mind (Ipod or Zune), so by the time he
decided, it was completely sold out. It's not even on
Ebay. Not that he wants it from there, anyway. He wants it
new and I can't blame him. I bought him some other little
things. A blanket from Old Navy, a leatherman-type tool
from Eddie Bauer, socks and undies, the usual. Just so
he'd have something to open this morning.

I had one present to open this morning, which ended up
being more than I expected from someone I hadn't expected
it from...Sue. Usually she's good for a pair of orthopedic
socks, chocolate covered banana pieces or a fruit basket
(these are gifts I've recieved in the past year, mind
you), so when I saw it was from her, I was expecting
something lame, but upon opening, I discovered the most
touching charm bracelet I've ever seen! Each charm says
something front and back. The front being a single word,
the back being a wish. I've got it on, so I'll share it
with you. All caps will be the front of the charm,
lowercase will be the back, each line a different charm...

MY DAUGHTER
I WISH YOU
PEACE when you're troubled I wish you peace
BEAUTY when your spirit is low, I wish you beauty
HOPE when you're discouraged, I wish you hope
JOY when you're sad, I wish you joy
LOVE when you're lonely, I wish you love

Isn't that nice? I don't think of Sue as my mother, but
it's still a lovely sentiment. Between each heart-shaped
charm is a colored Swarowski crystal and it's made of
silver. Silver (or white gold) has never been my favorite
metal color, but it's been growing on me lately. Now the
only yellow gold I wear is my wedding set. If I wasn't
emotionally attached to it, I might get a set in white
gold! I'm kidding. I love my wedding set. It's pretty.

I hate to even bring this subject up again, but there's a
possibility I might be pregnant. The past three days my
breast have become increasingly more swollen and
uncomfortable. To the point where I spent a good portion
of the day on the couch with an ice pack under my robe,
because that was the only thing that provided any relief.
I'm incredibly fatigued (I took two, two hour naps today),
bloated, irritable and sensitive to the smells of Dream
Angels Heavenly (our most popular perfume at work), peanut
butter and Kiki's baby food. I've also got a mysterious
(and copious) cloudy (but sometimes clear) discharge
making me feel very icky down there. It isn't much to go
on right now, but it just doesn't feel like my usual PMS.
The last time I felt this way was back in September when I
miscarried. So, it's possible. I'm just waiting until next
week for my period to come. It's due on Saturday. We'll
see. Snookums is 100% sure he got me pregnant. The girls
at work make fun of me because of how green I turn
everytime a client sprays Heavenly (which just so happens
to be right in front of the cashwrap) and by my huge jugs
that aren't staying in my shirts very well. Christine told
me yesterday that my chest looked "squished" because all
my bras are too tight. It isn't fun and it doesn't feel
very good, either. I don't know if I want this anymore!
I'm almost frightened. Snookums leaves in 3 weeks and will
be gone 8 months. I'm not ready for this at all.

I think I'll go to bed now. Once again, I'm sleepy. So,
whoever reads this. Merry Christmas and goodnight. Ciao.




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