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My Life Thus Far
2006-12-05 05:25:21 (UTC)

All Out Of Phenazopyridine

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I'm tired. Work is great, but it really does take it out
of me when I work several days in a row. Yesterday was
supposed to be one of my days off (I generally get two per
week), but I took Meghan's marathon shift so I only got
one day off last week. I worked today, so it was like no
days off. But, I've got tomorrow off (at this point), so
I'll have a chance to recuperate.

Kiki was moved from the infant wing to her new toddler
room this morning. It was very hard for us. She's not
completely comfortable with her new teachers yet and she
cried so hard when I left her, I thought she'd burst a
blood vessel if she kept it up. I wanted to scoop her up,
put her in her Snugli and take her with me to work, but
unfortunately, that isn't allowed. It should be. More
parents and babies would be happy if we didn't have to be
separated all the time. When I went back this evening to
pick her up, she was laughing and playing, which was good.
There's hope that she'll adjust okay. There's another
Kallista in her room, only her name starts with a "C", the
rest of the spelling is the same, though. She's 3 years
old, so Kiki has her name, I guess.

It felt like it had been forever since I'd been to the gym
when I got there this morning. I'm saddened by the fact
that I've lost my drive to burn calories and lose weight.
I've kind of reached a stalling point. The same thing
happened around the holidays last year. There's really no
sense in trying to lose weight this time of year. Snookums
is home, he wants sweet things, bad for you things, and
although being vegan helps, there are a ton of vegan
options that I inevitably find myself reaching for.
Cookies, ice creams, candy bars, breads of varying kinds,
all things potato-related. I give up (at least for now). I
did an okay work out this morning and I'm managing to not
over eat, so I'm happy with that. I'll take what I can
get.

Tomorrow, I need to make appointments. I need one with the
urologist, because the antibiotics I was put on aren't
doing anything for me. My hoo-hoo is still irritable and
I'm all out of phenazopyridine (the numbing pill). I'm not
entirely sure what this means, but I'll discuss it with
the urologist. I also have to make Kiki's appointment with
the audiologist and then get her on the waiting list for
Holly Ridge (the neurodevelopmental center). That's one
call I'm not looking forward to making, but I have to do
what's best for Kiki, even if I don't feel like it needs
to be done just yet. Why does she HAVE to talk right now?
Why can't she be silent until she's ready to talk? Maybe,
unlike so many other people in the world, she's just
waiting until she's got something important to say? I
can't avoid the subject though. I have to see Kiki's
teachers every day. Annie's teacher I see twice a year, if
I'm lucky.

I made dinner tonight, for the first time in forever. Just
vegan spaghetti with garlic bread. I put veggie crumbles
and extra firm tofu in the sauce, used whole wheat pasta
and put soy cheese on the garlic bread. I even have soy
based parmesan flavored "cheese". Sometimes I'm shocked at
how healthy Snookums is willing to let me make dinner. I'm
proud of him for that. He's grown a lot from the Wonder
bread, Bisquick , Velveeta (and ever other form of Kraft)
processed cheese food eating guy I met 4 years ago. Wow,
has it really been 4 years? I guess so. October of 2002.

Speaking of my husband, I think I'll go spend some time
with him. January is creeping up on us and the reality of
7 months apart. I'm not looking forward to that... Ciao.




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