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My Life Thus Far
2006-11-26 05:56:42 (UTC)

Stargazer Lilies

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It would have been a 5 star day accept for what Snookums
did, but I'll get to that later...

Sue left this morning! She wasn't as bad as she has been
in the past, but she still irritates me to no end and I
feel slightly guilty about that, because she's a nice
lady. Just really vacant and flighty. I hope it isn't
hereditary.

Work went well. I ended up getting 6 cards again, which
was amazing considering no one got any all morning or
while I was there. I don't know about after I left. Either
way, no one can touch me and I can't begin to explain how
good that feels. I'm GOOD at something! Something people
value! At least, the people at work. I also made a few big
sales. A couple over $200 and one over $300. Bras, bras
and more bras. At $50 a pop, they add up fast.

When I got off at 3pm, I came home and helped Snookums put
away the last of our laundry, then we went out as a
family. Snookums got his hair cut, I went back to pick up
my pay check (that I've forgotten to get the past 2 days,
because I don't need the money) and then we went out to
dinner with Gen and Sam. This is when things went down
hill...

We decided to go to the Olive Garden because we haven't
been there in awhile. Snookums has been a little brooding
all day (actually, most of Thursday, Friday and today) and
didn't seem too into the idea of getting together. So, why
he said it was cool, I don't know. I wish he'd just said
he didn't want to, becuase he ended up embarrassing me and
probably making Gen and Sam feel uncomfortable and I'd
never want that to happen. I asked Snookums if anything
interesting had happened to him lately and he responded
with "I'm not saying shit". Considering I was just trying
to get him involved in the conversation because he hadn't
said a single thing, except to order his meal, I was hurt.
I tried to shake it off, but because I'm on the verge of
PMS and highly emotional (as usual), I started crying. I
hate when I do that, because it makes me look like a weak,
sobbing, dishrag of a woman, who is always upset about
something trivial. I'm not, really. Snookums is usually so
nice to me that when he isn't, it's hard to accept. Of
course he felt incredibly guilty about it and tried to
suck up with chocoalate and flowers ( 3 Hershey's
chocolate bars and a bunch of Stargazer lilies in a really
big arrangement), but the damage is done. Not even getting
Kiki and Annie ready for bed is going to make up for this
(he tried that, anyway). He has to realize that his moods
affect his family and even if he is tired, cranky or
angry, he can't take it out on us. I didn't even know why
he was angry. Apparently it was the comment I made
about "having PMS and not caring if what I said was
bitchy". That's the truth! When I get cranky, I don't care
what I say. What woman does? But, I'm not dark and ominous
when I'm cranky, like he is. Just emotionally short and
high-strung.

I've decided to put the vegan thing on the shelf for
awhile. I don't know if I'll go back to it, but I know for
sure I'll definitely stay vegetarian. I haven't been
drinking milk or eating eggs, but I have allowed myself to
have some things that have milk and/or eggs in them and it
hasn't killed me. I had a little pasta with cheese at
dinner tonight. One of three pasta shells filled with
ricotta. So far I feel okay. I also have a piece of
cheesecake for dessert. But, that's all I'm having today.
We'll see how this works out. If I start getting gassy and
bloated again, then I'm going back to vegan. I've been
feeling so great, I don't want to jeopardize that.

I guess I'll go eat my pumpkin cheesecake and go to sleep.
I'm tired after such a long day. It's a good feeling being
busy, though. Ciao.




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