Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2006-11-21 14:39:42 (UTC)

Intercouse Inhibition

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Did you see my picture on my profile now! I've got a
picture! I was under the impression that only the people
that donate where allowed to have pictures, but one day a
little star appeared next to my diary and now I can have a
picture. Granted, it isn't a good picture, but it's
something.

I completely passed out last night. Actually, I was
procrastinating and ended up falling asleep. Last night
was my last Snookums-less night and I still need to do a
few little things around the house. Like, pick up some
Kiki-clutter, do the dishes and take out the garbage.
Handling the Kiki-clutter isn't so bad, but the other two
things just happen to be my mosted-hated chores of all
time. I'd rather scrub the toilet or clean up cat puke.
It's after 6am right now. So, the time has come to get it
done, or it ain't getting done.

Work was good yesterday. I'm getting back into my game
after Kiki's illness. I pulled off 5 cards yesterday, but
it would have been 8. One old lady couldn't remember her
social security number, another filed for bankruptcy this
year and had nothing in her name, not even a bank account
and another girl wasn't 18 yet. I'm still happy with 5.
That's 4 more than anyone else got.

I had to run two very important errands before and after
work, too. Before work, I stopped in at Castles, because
Snookums wanted me to find anal beads that didn't have a
string as their means of attachment. I ended up finding
some silicone beads that were molded out of one piece, so
it doesn't look like anything will be getting suck up
there because of them! I also found a couple of cockrings
that looked pretty interesting. One has spikes on it and
the other has swirls (they're squishy silicone, not
metal!) Those are for me, I guess. Castle's has started
gift wrapping anything over $30 for the holidays, so I
took them up on that service. The wrapping is actually
quite tasteful. A silver bag with a castle on the side and
silver/white striped tissue. I think he'll be happy with
his present.

After work (because I'm the queen of procrastination) I
still had to pick out Snookums welcome home dress. Forever
21 bailed me out again. After trying on about 10 different
dresses (all of them being either completely too big or
too small for my DD's) I found a sexy black jersey knit
dress with fun little buttons on the bodice (a smiley
face, a flower, a strawberry, a heart, a black/silver faux
Chanel button) and a patent leather belt at the waist. It
makes me look so tiny and it's quite provocative, with
it's low neckline and the high-waisted belt. I'm going to
wear my fuck-me boots with it and meet him at his gate. He
should be one happy Snookums, considering he's been
complaining all week about how horny he is.

Speaking of sex. I've noticed a startling development that
occurs when Snookums is about to come home, right up until
the day he arrives. I've got intercourse inhibition. I'm
NERVOUS about having sex with him. Like, it's our first
time or something. I've been horny off and on the entire
time he's been gone, but the past few days I've been a
little squeamish about the idea of actually having sex.
Nothing (or no one) has touched my body in a sexual manner
in the past month and reopening that side of our
relationship always makes me a little apprehensive. Is
that normal? After all, he is my husband. If I can't be
excited about making love to him, than what is there to
look forward to?!

I'd better go. Those dishes aren't going to wash
themselves! Ciao.




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