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My Life Thus Far
2006-11-13 04:27:20 (UTC)

Peruvian Spider Monkey Flu

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I've had a crappy day. Kiki has managed to discover a new
strain of Peruvian spider monkey flu and is not pleased
about it (okay, there is no such thing as Peruvian spider
monkey flu, but it sure sounds hard to catch and nasty,
doesn't it)? She has been running a fever off and on all
day, she hasn't eaten much (a cup of mandarin orange
segments), she hasn't drank much (half a cup of apple
juice) and she refused to be put down even while I went
pee. I'm not holding out much hope that this week is going
to go well. I'm really bummed. Honestly, I want to cry.
This is like the same story as back in June, only a
different set and characters. Oh, and probably a different
virus. I'm holding out the slightest glimmer of hope that
she wakes up miraculously cured tomorrow morning, but I
don't know. I see termination in my future....

I know my job at Victoria's Secret isn't of much
consequence, but it's very important to me. It makes me
feel competent, proficient and most of all ATTRACTIVE.
That's important to any woman (no matter what the
staunchly feminist, she-woman man-haters out there may
think). Every woman wants to feel like she's of value to
more than just her family and friends. Some may not need
it as much as others, but it's still a great feeling to be
fulfilled in both a corporate and domestic capacity. Why
can't Kiki just be healthy? This is one of those
situations when a mother looks back on her pregnancy and
wonders what the hell she did wrong to deserve or cause
this.

I think I'll make myself some comfort food. With Kiki
being so clingy, I really didn't get to eat much more than
a banana, two chunks of pineapple and 12 cubes of
watermelon. I'm starved. I think vegan spaghetti would hit
the spot. Ciao and keep your fingers crossed that when I
write tomorrow, it will be about how wonderful my day
went...




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