Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2006-11-09 07:42:58 (UTC)

Eavesdrop

***** then ** then back to **** (it was a rough day)

"Aggression is an intimate part of ourselves. That is why
we have to struggle. men raised in a strictly nonviolent
environment have managed to become the most horrible
butchers. This proves that the most insane aggressiveness
continues to live in the depths of us. But our true nature
is calm.

We all know that the human mind is agitated, subject to
frightful jolts. But this agitation isn't the dominant
force. It is possible and necesary to master it."

Can you believe it's already after 11:30pm? Since I don't
feel like writing, it's getting late and I already wrote
my Dad a long e-mail. I'm going to let you eavesdrop just
for tonight, so at least you'll have something to read...

Hey Dad,

I think I got the right e-mail to the right person this
time! That's going to get me in trouble someday. I'd
better be careful. I'm kidding, there's no skeletons in my
closet. But, sometimes it isn't such a great idea to send
the wrong e-mail to the wrong person.

Jason didn't seem hurt when he talked to me, although he
did mention that you didn't call him back right away.
Maybe he was hurt. I can't imagine why. He's a big boy, he
should be able to handle getting sent to voicemail. Lord
knows he talks to mine enough!

Annie hasn't gotten a report card yet. They don't even use
letters in her school. Just plus signs, check marks and
minus signs. As if that isn't confusing enough, it is
possible to get a check minus in PE or a plus plus in
math. I hate this system. I hope it doesn't continue as
she gets older. She always gets a minus in the "shows and
maintains self control" category. I suppose she gets that
from her mother. I did some research on ADD tonight, just
out of curiosity (and because her teacher sent home
another note asking me to have her evaluated). I'm even
more convinced that I don't want to have her medicated,
but she did fit the profile of Attention Deficit
Inattention Disorder, which basically means, if you boil
it down to the nuts and bolts, that she's a gifted child,
bored out of her mind. I think we've all got a little ADD
in us. I refuse to break her spirit. I will however, look
into counseling, because I think there's something else
going on other than just her disinterest in the 2nd grade
curriculum.

Kiki is giving me a run for my money again. I worked not
one day this week because Kiki has gone back to being ill.
I took her to daycare today because Annie had a dentist's
appointment (for sealants) and I got called back to pick
her up because she had a fever of 102.6-again. So, she
can't go back tomorrow. Thank goodness my schedule had
been changed again, so I don't work until Monday. That'll
give her time to get over whatever is bringing on the
fever. I won't lie thought, I got really upset. It's like
deja vu. I'm missing work because Kallista is sick. I'm
starting to think the cosmos want me to be a stay-at-home-
mom. I've decided to do my best to keep Kiki out of
daycare as much as possible. She'll only go there while
I'm at work. They're opening a kid-friendly gym on base
next week and I'll get my workouts in with her by my side,
just because I'm sure there will be less snot-nosed kids
in the family gym than at daycare.

Okay Dad, I'm going to bed now. I can't believe it's
already after 11:30pm. I don't stay up this late anymore!
I love you and I'll talk to you later. Jason says he'll
talk to you tomorrow. His schedule looks light. Has he
told you how easy his job is? It's ridiculous. Well, love
you!

Always Your Girl,
Jen




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