Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2006-11-03 04:57:40 (UTC)

Uncomfortable

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"Oppression has never, anywhere, succeeded in suppressing
the eternal desire of people to live as free men-free to
think their won thoughts, free to act as they consider
best for the common welfare and live as human beings-not
as robots or slaves.

Even if the Chinese leave nothing but ashes in our sacred
land, Tibet will rise from these ashes as a free country
even if it takes a long time to do so. No imperialist
power has succeeded in keeping other people in colonial
subjection for long."

I so don't feel like writing right now. It's a good think
I've only got 10 minutes before Grey's Anatomy comes on,
because otherwise, I probably wouldn't have written at all
tonight. I told myself I only had to write as much as I
could fill into 10 minutes.

My day was just uncomfortable. I didn't feel right or
centered at all, at any point in the day. I was just not
comfortable in my own skin. Nothing bad happened, but
nothing good did, either. It was cold, rainy and sad, too.
So, that didn't help. Snookums left me (which I was okay
with, then not okay with, then okay with again. I'm okay
with it now), Tamara (my manager) got my schedule all
fucked up and has me working on the two days I asked off
(Annie's dentist appointment and Veteran's Day, because
the daycare is closed) and weekends, which I told her I
can't do when Snookums is gone. So, I had to get that
worked out. It still isn't all figured out, but what can I
do about it? If I don't have anyone to watch my kids, I
can't work. They're just going to have to find a way
around it. I am grateful to Kim and Jenny, thought. The co-
managers. They really tried to help me tonight. Once I
explained my problem, they tried to find other people to
take my shifts. The thing that pisses me off the most is
that I had 21.5 hours scheduled for next week. I got those
hours as a reward for being #1 CSL (client sales lead.
Basically, getting the most money per transaction) and for
being #1 in credit. Then, becuase of a schduling error, I
had to turn around and give those hours to other girls.
Now I've got 10 stinkin hours. Which is what I've been
working, so I guess it isn't too terrible, but I love my
job and I want to be good at it and work good hours.
Snookums leaving has really cramped my style. I'll get
over it, though. What choice do I have? I asked at Annie's
daycare if they had any home care providers that provided
evenings or weekends on occasion and they don't, so I have
not a single option to help me out. There's just no
support for military families. Not even within the
military!

Alright times up. Ciao.




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