rainy

My heart in a knot
2006-10-26 14:19:01 (UTC)

Just nothing...

For some reason I think I made a big mistake by talking to
that guy online--- But I'm not really sure because his
number is different then the one's in my area, but then
again so is that one guys who I met at work. Anyway--- I
just hung up on some one not long ago.

I was just reminded of angel, when will I get over him 100%??

Oh yea, I also for got to say yesterday in between stalking
that guy I lingered by the spanish club, so next monday they
have a meeting and I'm going to go.. just really to check it
out. I'm not going to try to make friends or anything, I
don't really want to make friends with any spanish girls or
guys really... not around campus anyway. That may sound
really weaird considering how interested I am in spanish
cutlure. But mostly I want to learn and watch spanish
people... and I won't be albe to do that if I make friends
with them.. and of course it things go bad I can always
leave without notice... that's one thing that I have begun
to love about life... that I don't have to stay some were if
I don't feel like it... like if I wanted to leave class then
I could do it, there will be consiquence but the teacher
can't really do anything about it... they can't stop me at
the door and tell me no.

So we'll see on monday how everything gose at the spanish
meeting, I really want to learn all I can about spanish
culture and people. Then I'm going to use that knowlege to
do something that I want to do.

So anyway... I'm afraid that soon I will have to pull a
dissipearing act on mel... that reminds me.. David blaine is
gone!! I mean the profile I created for him is gone... I
think it was because some of thouse images I uploaded were
from google or it could of been because I was using a fake
email address... but he's gone... and I feel kind of bad
because I really liked that profile even though it was kind
of wrong for me to do his fans like that... they told some
pretty personal stuff...

Anyway, I hope I don't have to dissipear on mel like that, I
know it may be a big shock, plus then I won't be in contact
with any latino/hispanic men... anyway, I'm a bit confused
with the fact that whats her name isen't writing me any
more, it kind of sucks. But I think I know what happened...
so well Im leaving for now, but maybe I'll be back later..
who knows...


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