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My Life Thus Far
Why Can't We All Just Stay In Bed?
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"In Buddha's time there was a king who committed the
heinous crime of murdering his father. But he was totally
overwhelmed by his crime, and depressed. When Buddha
visited him he made a statement that parents are to be
killed, but he didn't mean it literally. Buddha was using
parents as a kind of metaphor for desire and attachment
that lead to rebirth.
Because karma and desire combine to create rebirth, in
some sense they are like parents. Thus, he meant that
karma and desire are to be eliminated."
Sounds like a really crappy misunderstanding...
I wish I was better able to take control of my Saturdays.
I can't get up like its any other day. I still have the
desire to lay in bed until 2pm, even though I'm not
feeling depressed. Laying in bed feels good and is
relaxing. Cleaning the house is not fun, although it is
rewarding, it takes awhile to get to that reward and it
just feels better to stay in bed. Why can't we all just
stay in bed?
I did manage to get the house cleaned up, and the
groceries I bought yesterday put away (I'd only put away
the frozen and refridgerated stuff, the rest was deposited
on the counter and left). I even got a really good start
on the laundry. I won't finish it tonight, because I need
to go to bed a decent hour, but half of it's done. I'm
about ready to make myself some dinner and clean up the
kitchen. After that, it's back to the bedroom.
Tomorrow morning I have to get up earlier than I do on
weekdays! I'm not looking forward to this at all. Remember
when I said I could do away with Sundays? Well, I didn't
mean like this! I'll have to get up around 5:30am to make
sure both the girls and I are ready and dressed by 7am so
we can drop them off at Gen's, so I can get to work by
8am. I've got a store meeting to attend from 8am-10am,
then I'm meeting everyone at Crossroads. Of all the
churches I've attended, Crossroads is the least
judgemental, but I still don't want to go. I'm only going
because Gen wanted me to and she'll have my children.
Annie on the other hand has been pleaing and begging with
me to go back to Crossroads. I can't help but wonder if
I'm on the wrong path and Annie is God's way of trying to
lure me back. If there is a God, he's going to have to
drop a much bigger clue than an annoying 7 year old!
I'm hungry. Time to eat! Ciao until tomorrow.
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