Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
A Tendency To Romanticize
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"Man and society are interdependent, hence the quality of
man's behavior as an individual and as a participant in
his society is inseparable. Reparations have been
attempted in the past in order to lessen the malaise and
dysfunctional attitudes of our social world in order to
build a society that is more just and equal.
Institutions and organizations have been established with
their charters of noble ideology to combat these social
problems. For all intents and purposes, the objectives
have been laudable; but it has been unfortunate that
basically good ideas have been defeated by man's inherent
self-interest."
Well, tonight is my last night as a housewife. I'll
officially be a working woman as of tomorrow morning. I'm
not entirely sure how I feel about that, but I know I'm
going to give this my all. It seems like I'm always so
flighty. One minute I'm basking in the glow of working-
womanhood, the next I'm pining for the ability to control
my own life and do as I please. Why am I never satisfied?
This is a question that I intend to explore further.
I have a tendency to romanticize. I envision how I want
things to be in my head and when things don't meet up to
those high expectations, I lose interest and want to move
on. I think this explains a lot as to why I'm never
satisfied. I'm always viewing the world through idealized
notions that have very little validity in the real world.
No wonder I'm never content. I'm always looking for
the "perfect" job or the "perfect" balance between work
and family life. When am I going to realize that there is
no such thing as "perfect" and I really ought to stop
trying to attain it. That's why I'm going to give
Victoria's Secret my best effort. The hours shouldn't be
too terrible, since the mall doesn't open until 9am and
I'll only be working part-time. I actually love what I'll
be selling (which is always a plus!) and I get to wear
whatever I want as long as it's 95% black (shallow, yes,
but still a selling point). If there's anywhere I should
be happy, it's at VS. It's my best chance, so I need to
run with it. Right now, the position is only seasonal, but
if I do a good job, they might offer me a permanent
position. I've got to be on my P's and Q's (what the hell
does that mean, anyway?)
I just saw the cutest thing. My big black cat just walked
by carrying a pink pom-pom in his mouth (the kind kids use
for arts and crafts). He's hunting it like it's a mouse!
Right now it's sitting on the floor at the end of the
hallway and he's crouched down about 4 feet from it. OH!
There he goes. He caught it! He looks so proud of himself.
Had I known he loved pom-poms so much, I would have saved
myself the money spent on catnip balls, cat grass and
artificial bird toys all these years. I can get 100 of the
damn things for a dollar and he'd be happy the rest of his
life. He's not the smartest cat on the block, but I love
him just the same.
I'd love to chat more, but I still need to put away some
laundry, do the dishes, take out the garbage and iron my
clothes for tomorrow. Yes, I'm actually going to iron
something (and not by spraying it with wrinkle release and
putting it in the dryer). Maybe I should have done some of
this earlier? Maybe, but I don't have to get up until 7am
tomorrow, if I don't want to, so it's okay. Ciao and wish
me luck!
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