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My Life Thus Far
Bumpin' Beethoven
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"Our experience is based on the five inner and five outer
elements. When your meditative experience gets deep enough
to control the five inner elements, then there is the
possibility of controlling the five outer elements.
Although space seems empty, once you develop the energies,
you can control it. When that happens, you can look right
through solid things and walk in empty space as if it were
solid."
That makes no sense to me what-so-ever, but okay.
Apparently, I'm not there yet. I don't know if I ever will
be.
I had a really good day, for the most part. Annie was
really wearing on my nerves from the moment she woke up to
the moment she went to bed. Not listening, not doing what
she's told, questioning my authority, ignoring what I say.
The usual, only more so today than normally. I'm starting
to wonder if we'll ever have the relationship I wanted us
to. I wanted that idyllic Gilmore Girls kind of mother-
daughter bond. But, it's not looking so good for us. We'll
be lucky to have a "normal" relationship, let alone a
Hollywood-perfect, made-for-tv one. What was I thinking?
Anyhow, for the most part my day went well. I slept great,
got up, did the breakfast thing with the girls and
straightened up the house a bit. I started laundry too.
Which, is something I've been putting off until Sunday
(when I absolutely have to do laundry). So, I was proud of
that.
By lunchtime, both girls were starting to wear on my
nerves. Annie was being Annie and Kiki was whining, crying
and demanding to be held at all times. I got them fed and
cleaned up, then it was my most favorite hour (or two,
sometimes three) in the middle of the day! NAP TIME! Kiki
went right down. No problem. Annie, who feels too big for
pretty much everything, laid in bed and read a book. I on
the other hand, sequesterd myself in my bedroom and
cleaned, all while bumpin' Beethoven! For some reason, the
classical music really uplifed and relaxed me. So much so,
that I was inclined to do something I've been putting off
for months. I cleaned out my closet. I have a pile of
clothes four feet wide and three feet tall. All of which
is going to Goodwill on Monday. Don't let me forget to
mention the 22 pairs of shoes I'll be donating! I'm so
proud of myself. You can actually see the bottom of my
closet now and I don't have to hunt for matching shoes,
they're right next to each other now. Snookums will be so
happy. He hated going in our closet. I did too, to be
perfectly honest. I also cleaned out my jewelry box and
got rid of all the stuff I haven't worn in awhile or lost
a piece of. Annie was very happy to get the refuse from
that chore.
Well, I think I'll be going now. I still need to bag up my
donations, eat dinner and do the dishes. After that, I'm
crawling in bed and relaxing. Maybe I'll even work on
those scrapbooks for the grandmothers, but I make no
promises. Ciao.
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