Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2006-09-30 07:43:32 (UTC)

A Strawberry Pina Colada and A Sour Apple Martini

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Yesterday's:
"I am talking to you and you are listening to me. We are
generally under the impression that there is a speaker and
an audience and there is the sound of words being spoken
but, in the ultimate truth, if I search within myself I
will not find the words, and if you search yourselves you
will not find them-they are all void like empty space. yet
they are not completely nonexistent. They must exist, for
we are able to feel them.

What I am saying is being heard by you, and you are in
turn thinking on the subject. My speech is producing some
effects, yet if we search tor them we cannot find them.
This mystery relates to the dual nature of truth."

Today's:
"I find that giving a discourse based on religious texts
is a good way of showing that religion has a lot to tell
us, no matter what situation we find ourselves in.
However, I am better at it now than I was in the
beginning. In those days I lacked confidence, although it
improved every time I spoke in public. Also, I found, as
every teacher does, that there is nothing like teaching to
help one learn."

I so do not feel like writing right now. Last night really
messed me up (or fixed me, depending on how you want to
look at it). I wasn't particularly hung over, but I've
been so tired all day. I fell asleep around 11:15pm and
didn't wake up until Annie shook me and said "Mommy, are
you going to get up? It's 8:15." I didn't even hear the
alarm go off at 6am and Annie has to be at school by
9:05am. I haven't slept that hard since Snookums' left. I
could have slept much longer, too. Maybe a couple drinks
was all I needed to get my internal clock back on schedule!

I guess I should update you on yesterday. It was an
interesting day. Very much out of the norm for me. Not
just the drinking part, but during the day too. I had
lunch with a stranger! I needed to stop in the Commissary
to pick up some basics (watermelon, soy milk, Kiki's milk,
etc.), but I was really hungry and you're never suppose to
grocery shop hungry, so I stopped in Subway after the gym.
Well, I guess it was either lunch time or quiting time on
the Lincoln, because the place was jam packed with
sailors. I walked in and all eyes were on me, which is a
very uncomfortable feeling. I would have just gone to
McDonald's (which probably wouldn't have been much better)
but they don't have very many good vegan options. So, I
just stuck it out. One guy behind me was being a little
bit of an ass. Standing too close to me, making comments.
It was a little embarrassing for me. But, just out of the
blue, the sailor in front of me said I could go in front
of him. Wasn't that nice? By the time we'd gotten to the
front of the line, we'd chatted a little and I felt
comfortable with him. So, I asked if he'd eat with me, so
I wouldn't have to sit alone. He said yes and we spent
about an hour talking and enjoying each other's company.
It was very nice. His name was Robby Morse and he's
getting ready to transfer to San Diego in two days. So,
there's no danger of me doing anything wrong. I don't even
feel the need to get myself into that kind of situation.
It was just nice having someone to talk to and also keep
the vultures away. It worked too. Several of the guys
Robby worked with came by and looked at him like they had
no clue what he was doing (Robby wasn't ugly, but he
wasn't society's idea of handsome either. Kind of like
Snookums, but beauty's in the eye of the beholder after
all). I've already told Snookums about it. He wasn't mad,
but would prefer I didn't have lunch with strange men. I
promised, but Robby was different. He wasn't a strange
man. I had good feelings about him. Which is saying
something, since I usually hate all men until they prove
themselves.

Since I don't remember much about last night. I can't
really talk about it. We went to Outback and I had two
drinks. A strawberry pina colada and a sour apple martini.
I vaguely remember watching Grey's Anatomy on the tv's in
the bar and eating a lot of french fries, but the details
are fuzzy. Maybe when Gen gets back from Vegas, she'll
fill me in! I hope I kept my clothes on this time.

Today was a normal day. Minus Gen's presence. I did some
final shopping for work on Monday. I bought two pairs of
black slacks, a black blazer and some jewelry. Since I'll
be wearing a lot of black, I bought some interesting
pieces to spice up my wardrobe. I'm looking forward to
having something to do on a regular basis other than
shopping. I'm starting to get shopped out, which I'm sure
Snookums will think is a great thing! He's due to get the
next installment of his re-enlistment bonus on Monday and
I'm sure he'd like a chance to spend some of it! He's so
good to me. How many men would hand over their entire
paycheck and trust their wife with it's safe handling? I
don't think I could do it. That's why I never violate
Snookums' trust. Bills are never late, a little always
goes in savings (how long it stays there is another story)
and I never spend more than we have. Simple rules that
keep me out of trouble. Lately, there's even been money
left over from payday to payday! I guess that would mean
I'm curbing my shopping addiction. I know I'll do even
better if I have something to do other than shop.

Well, my bed is calling me again. I'm so exhausted. I fell
asleep as soon as I put the girls' down (which is why I'm
writing so late) and I'm ready to go back to sleep! So
that's what I shall do. Ciao!




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