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My Life Thus Far
2006-09-25 05:12:28 (UTC)

Black Tea Tapas

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"There is a true feminist movement in Buddhism that
relates to the goddess Tara. Following her cultivation of
bodhicitta, the bodhisattva's motivation, she looked on
those striving toward full awakening and she felt that
there were too few people who attained Buddhahood as
women. So she vowed, "I have developed bodhicitta as a
woman. For all of my lifetimes along the path I vow to be
born as a woman, and in my final lifetime when I attain
Buddhahood, then, too, I will be a woman."

Sunday is an unnecessary addition to my weekend. Saturday
is all the rest and relaxation I need. Sunday just bores
me and makes me antsy for Monday. Call me strange if you'd
like, but Sunday is for church-goers and the poor,
unfortunate people that work on Saturday's. Not me. It's
just one more day to sit around and do nothing and doing
nothing is dangerous for me. My mind starts to wander and
I have to fight twice as hard not to slip into depression.
Around 4pm, I sunk into bed when it wasn't at all a good
time, simply because I couldn't function for a moment. I
needed to get away from the girls and regroup. I felt
really down for no particular reason. So, I dragged my
sorry behind out of bed and came back to reality. It was
so hard. If Sunday didn't exist, that never would have
happened.

I succumbed to the desire for comfort food today. I woke
up needing carbs. A sure sign that PMS is in the not too
distant future, but not in the immediate future, either.
I've still got a week of normalcy left. I think. I made
myself some vegan cornbread and that seemed to do the
trick. I nibbled on that throughout the day and by late
afternoon, it was gone. I ate over 1000 calories in just
cornbread. Nothing else (it was more like 1300 if you add
in the Smart Balance and strawberry preserves I spread on
the cornbread)! I don't really feel bad about it. For two
reasons. 1) I technically DID NOT overeat, because I
didn't exceed my daily caloric requirements (1800
calories) and 2) Cornbread (especially vegan cornbread)
isn't necessarily bad for you. Well, it's kind of starchy,
but I don't do it often.

Because I'm kind of filled to the gills with bread, I
wasn't in the mood for dinner. So, I had black tea tapas.
Well, kinda. Tapas is a term from Spain meaning small
snacks, usually little savory appetizers shared among
friends. I really just had a variety of my favorite black
teas. I broke out my little tea cups and made 4 varieties
of my favorite Bigelow teas. Eggnogg'n (which doesn't
actually taste like eggnog, but has an interesting
sweet/creamy taste, even without dairy added), Gingerbread
(which has all the spice of real gingerbread), Constant
Comment (my all time favorite, has oriental spices and
real orange rind in the teabag) and lastly, Vanilla
Caramel (a dark, strong tea with a definite warmth to it's
flavor. Very rich. A friend of mine sent it to me all the
way from Kentucky, because I haven't ever been able to
find it around here). That was my dinner. I enjoyed mixing
up the cups and identifying each one by it's aroma.
There's something so fun about interacting with your food
or beverage. Try it sometime!

Finally, this day is coming to a close. It's taken
forever. It feels like it should be 2am, but it's only
10pm. I guess that means I should go to bed if I'm feeling
like it's so late. I still have a couple of loads of
laundry in the middle of the bed. If I want to lay down, I
have to put them away. That's the rule. So, I'd better get
on it! Ciao.




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