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My Life Thus Far
2006-09-10 03:25:16 (UTC)

A Cozy Day

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" Leaving aside memory-which allows us to remember, for
example, the experiences of our youth-we all have latent
and unconscious tendencies that arise under certain
circumstances and influence the way our minds react. Such
tendencies are the product of powerful experiences in the
recent or distant past, which cause us to react
unconsciously without our necessarily remembering those
experiences.

It is difficult to explain these tendencies and how they
manifest other than by saying that they are the imprints
of past experiences on the subtle consciousness."

I know for certain that everything I've been through
directly affects the way I react to almost all situations.
Even when I'm not thinking about the past. When people say
they've been scarred for life, some have no idea how it
truely feels to be scarred.

Today was such a cozy day. Fall is most definitely on it's
way to Western Washington. It was very cloudy, cold and
breezy today. A far cry from the 80 degrees it was
yesterday. But, even yesterday morning was cooler than it
has been all summer. So, I can feel it coming. I broke out
my fleece and flannel after a nice, hot shower this
morning! I can't say I'm sad to see the summer go. I like
the warm weather, but I think my favorite time of year is
early fall, when it's comfortably cool, but not yet
freezing. I love the smells more than anything (pumpkin
spice, mulled cider, cinnamon, apples, the smell of wood
burning). I love putting on warm sweaters and wearing
jeans and boots. Only two weeks until the official start
of fall!

Now, back to today. I didn't do much. I cozied up on the
couch while Snookums watched football. Kiki and Annie
played on the floor and I did laundry. I took a nap and
just relaxed most of the day. Then, after we put the girls
to bed, I gave myself a manicure. I soaked, trimmed,
filed, and buffed my fingers to a high shine, then
massaged them with cuticle oil. They look like I painted
them, but they're completely polish free. That's about the
most labor-intensive accomplishment I managed all day. I
feel really lucky to be able to do NOTHING on the weekend.
Not a lot of people have that luxury.

Snookums opened the smoked salmon he brought back with him
from Michigan today and I nearly gagged. It's so strange.
I used to love salmon. It was my favorite fish. Now, the
very smell of it made me ill. Why is that? It's only been
3 weeks since I last ate meat. I couldn't have developed
an aversion that quickly, could I? Maybe it's
psychological. I haven't regretted this decision or wished
I could have something I've sworn off not once. In fact,
I'm dreading the day my pledge ends, because I fear people
will think I should go back to my old ways. I don't want
to. I'm happier this way than I ever was as an omnivore.
But then, when have I ever cared what other people
thought?

Since I have nothing left to say, I suppose I'll stop
writing now. Ciao until tomorrow.




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