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My Life Thus Far
2006-08-23 04:57:14 (UTC)

The Stuff Good Days Are Made Of

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"There are many afflictive emotions such as conceit,
arrogance, jealousy, desire, lust, close-mindedness, and
so on, but of all these, hatred or anger is singled out as
the greatest evil. This is done for two reasons. One is
that hatred or anger is the greatest stumbling block for a
practitioner who is aspiring to enhance his or her
altruism and attain a good heart. Second, when hatred or
anger are generated they have the capacity to destroy
one's virtue and calmness of mind."

I'm thankful that hatred and anger aren't two emotions I
entertain very often. I don't harbor any hatred that I can
think of. Hate is a strong word and I prefer not to use it
even casually, but I do. I think we all do, even if we
don't really mean to say we hate something. I used to feel
a lot of anger towards my step-father, but over time that
anger has turned to indifference. I don't think much of
him at all and when I do, it's usually pity or guilt
because I know his life has gone to hell in a handbasket.
So, if guilt is as bad as anger and hatred, then I'm
guilty. No pun intended.

I had such a FABULOUS day! I met all the goals I set for
myself, in the time I allowed for them and everything just
went so smoothly. I didn't have one bad moment all day!
This pleases me more than you can even imagine. In all
honesty, today was an ordinary day. Nothing fantastic
happened. I didn't win the lottery or discover the cure
for cancer, but I did get my house cleaned and put away
all my clean laundry. For me, this is the stuff good days
are made of.

I stopped in Safeway today after my workout. For some
reason, I always forget the Commissary is closed on
Tuesday, even though it's been closed on Tuesday since the
beginning of eternity, I always forget and plan on grocery
shopping on Tuesdays. So, instead of starving, I sucked it
up and went to overpriced (or normal-priced) Safeway. I
got a half gallon of Lite Silk (soy milk), 3 bananas, a
pound of asparagus, 1 potato, 2 apples and a lunchable for
Annie. This cost me just shy of $20. That's about a 1/4 of
my entire month's food budget when Snookums is gone! I
would get a week's worth of food for me and the girls at
the Commissary for what I spent on a day's worth just for
me at Safeway. I don't know how civilians do it.

The vegetarian thing is going so well! I'm pleased. I
hardly ate any calories today. I had 2 bananas (one for
breakfast, one for lunch) a baked potato, 1/2 a pound of
steamed asparagus and a cup of Silk. I'll have some cubed
watermelon before I go to bed. A grand total of 750
calories, give or take. I don't feel hungry or deprived at
all, in fact I feel light and healthy. I think this is
exactly what my body needs. A good detox.

I submitted my resume today. No, I still haven't heard
from Victoria's Secret. I think my availability will be an
issue for them. They're in the mall and are open late
evenings and weekends. Both times I can't work, because
Snookums is gone all the time and the girls' daycares
don't stay open late or on weekends. So, today I put in my
resume at the Farmer's Insurance Group office here in Port
Orchard. They're open from 9:30am-5pm Mon-Thurs and 9am-
4:30pm on Friday. NO Saturdays or Sundays! That would be
so perfect for me. It's a part-time position and I have no
idea what it entails, I didn't ask, I was just stoked by
the easy hours! I'm not entirely sure if I really want to
work, but it was such a perfect opportunity (the hours
being perfect for me and all) that I thought it would be
dumb to pass it up. So, hopefully I hear from them and if
I don't, then I'll set my sights on taking some classes
this fall. Either way, I'll be happy.

I'm sleepy and ready to relax. Ciao until tomorrow!




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