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My Life Thus Far
2006-08-16 04:12:54 (UTC)

Talladega Nights

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"It is difficult to impose censorship in a democracy.
Though we can still see censorship at work in India, real
violence and even explicit eroticism are permited in
Indian films. Women can display themselves very
provocatively, as they do everywhere else. Yet until
recently men and women never kissed on the lips. People
killed one another, but they didn't kiss. And yet it is
more agreeable to kiss than to kill!

In Indian films, most of the time we witness the
development of a love story, which meets violent
opposition, but in the end the good-hearted people are
reunited and rewarded, while the villians are punished."

Today was about as good as my days get. My workout was
great, my morning was good, the rest of the day went well.
Nothing bad happened. So, that warrants 5 stars.

Snookums got off early from work today. Really early,
around 11am. He went to get a hair cut and I came home
from the gym to pay bills. I'm trying to slowly get all of
our bills signed up for online bill pay, but some
companies are slow to accept the technology. Now, all
that's left is one. Wave Broadband. How ironic is that?
The very company that we pay $90 a month to (for wireless
cable internet and cable tv) doesn't have online bill pay.
It's rediculous. When I went to visit Dad last month, the
main reason I came home was because I needed to pay bills
(that and Snookums was coming home. I figured I should
probably be here when he got home). If all our bills are
accesible from the internet, Dad will NEVER be able to get
rid of me! Unless of course I find a reason to keep me
here. Like, a job I can tolerate for more than 6 months or
classes at the college. I don't want to be a burden on
him, but the prospects of being alone for 6-8 months is
frightening. I thought I was stronger than this, but I'm
not, so why pretend?

Snookie took me to see a movie today. Talladega Nights. It
was INSANELY STUPID-FUNNY! The kind of funny that makes
you feel dumb for thinking it's funny and a little
stupider (is that a word?) just from watching it. See, I'm
already losing grammar skills and I only saw it once! When
it comes out on DVD, I have to get it.

For dinner, we went to the Chinese Buffet for dinner. I
didn't feel like eating today, but Snookums doesn't allow
me to go below 1000 calories per day or he gets mad. I
don't like him mad, so I just give in. But as soon as he's
gone, I'm living off fruit, water and maybe the occasional
piece of cheese. I need to lose weight. Just when I start
accepting myself for the way I am, I start having those
negative thoughts again. Why can't I just be skinny?
Naturally skinny like my mother? Instead of short, dumpy
and too muscular? Ballet can't even help me with this.

I guess I'd better go, before I talk myself down to a 3
star day. Snookums is waiting, it's watermelon time (and
only watermelon. Snookums if feeling guilty about hurting
me, so I think I'm safe for awhile)! Watermelon's a fruit.
I make allowances for fruit. Ciao.




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