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My Life Thus Far
2006-08-07 05:46:02 (UTC)

Samsara

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"When receiving the teachings, it is important to have the
correct attitude. It is not practicing the Dharma properly
to listen with the intention of gaining material advantage
or reputation. Either should our goal be higher rebirth in
the next life, nor should we be wishing only for our own
liberation from samsara. These are all attitudes we should
reject. Instead, let us listen to the teachings with the
determined wish to attain the state of omniscience for the
sake of all beings."

I had to look up samsara (it means something about the
constant cycle of reincarnation and rebirth), but
thankfully my intentions are in the right place and I'm
not recieving the teachings with the intention of strictly
improving my material status in life or my odds of coming
back in the next life as Paris Hilton (or would that be a
step down?). I'm honestly just looking for a holistic way
of living that will be good for my soul and every one
else's around me. That can't be a bad thing.

Today sucked a little, got a little better, then sucked
some more. Snookums left around 10am, that sucked. Then
Gen came over and spent the WHOLE day with me, that's when
my day got better. Then Gen left, that's when it sucked
some more. I have simple needs. Having days that don't
suck, is very much one of those needs.

Gen and I laid in bed, ate donuts, ice cream and pizza.
I've pretty much given up the idea of losing weight for
the moment (due to the circumstances). I still fully
intend to go to the gym 5 days a week, because regardless
of my physical state, I REFUSE to put back on all that
weight I worked so hard to lose (I accept I may have to
gain a little). I have to draw the line somewhere and when
I said I'd never get that big again, I meant it. So, I'm
keeping my promise to myself. I'd better get my beauty
rest so I can get to the gym on time tomorrow. Ciao.




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