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My Life Thus Far
2006-07-28 04:07:43 (UTC)

The Path To Tranquility

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"Today we face a number of problems. Some are natural
calamities, which we must accept and face as best as we
can. But some others are man-made problems created by our
own misbehavior and bad thoughts, which can be avoided.

One such problem arises from ideological or even religious
conflicts when men fight each other, losing sight of human
ends or goals. All different faiths and systems are only
methods to achieve a goal that for the average person is
happiness in life.

Therefore, at no time should we place means above ends:
the supremacy of man over matter and all that it entails
must be maintained at all times."

This Daily Wisdom is brought to you by: His Holiness The
Dalai Lama, from his book "The Path To Tranquility". It's
one of the books Dad gave me to study. I started reading
it last night and got through most of January (it has a
passage for every day of the year). I thought it would be
nice if I recorded each day's wisdom just as a reminder to
myself to read the book and also a way to commit the
passage to subconsious, so it isn't in one ear and out the
other per se. Even if you aren't studying Buddhism, I
still think the wisdoms are very relevent to our times. In
a weird way, they're almost like horoscopes. You can glean
from them any meaning that works for you. Two highly
different people can read the same thing and find ways to
make it fit them. That's how these passages feel to me. I
can totally relate. So, I'm passing them on to you.

I forgot to mention yesterday, but I've been writing in
this diary for exactly one year!!! Isn't that amazing? I
had no idea when I started it that I'd still be doing it a
year later. Neither did I think that I would have come so
far in my growth. Things aren't perfect, but who's life
is? Even I can say, I've come a long way from the sad and
sorry creature I was a year ago. Bravo to me!

I had a really great day. Another 5 star day, in fact! Now
that I've gotten control of Dominant (the aggressive voice
in my head) I think all my days, even the not-so-great
ones will be better overall. I'm feeling much more stable.
I know I still need to see my doctor about the meds (I've
only got a week's worth left), but when I'm feeling okay,
it's so easy to put it off. I HAVE to make the appointment
tomorrow. No if, ands or buts about it!

Gen and I worked out together today! She's decided that
she wants to start working out at the gym and since I'm
already at the gym everyday, it's a perfect fit! We had a
great workout (I was there a couple of hours before her,
so I got in my power cardio session). Then we went to
lunch. I had an enchilada plate and two chocolate cookies,
but since I burned 1200 calories and hadn't eaten anything
before and won't eat anything else, I'm sure it's okay.
Tomorrow, thought I'm going to make every attempt to stay
on track. Nothing bad for me is suppose to pass through my
lips and I need to stick to that contract. The first week
is rocky, I give myself some leeway, but by the first day
of week two, I've got to be straight. That's Monday, so I
can't be messing around anymore. MOTIVATION,
DETERMINATION, STICK-TO-ITIVNESS!!! I can totally do this.
I've come this far. It would be stupid to quite when I'm
in sight of my goal! No one thought I'd be able to do it,
but I have. Now I just have to prove to myself that I can
see it to the end.

Snookums has duty tonight, so the house and bed are mine.
I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE having him home, but the sad reality of
it is, I've gotten used to him being gone and he throws of
my dysfunctional routine. It may be dysfunctional, but
it's mine and he's getting it all messed up. I love him,
though. So, I can tolerate it. I know that once he's back
on shore duty, we'll fall back into the way life is
suppose to be, even if it's only for a few years.

Tonight, I'm going to throw in a load of laundry, because
our hamper runneth over and I'll delve into my studies.
It's all so interesting. I learn something new every time
I pick up the book. Ciao and peace be with you...




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