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My Life Thus Far
2006-07-25 05:10:11 (UTC)

Sorry Friendlysaif

Have any of you nice people reading my diary for more than
two days seen any clues in my writing that may lead you to
believe that I'm interested in converting to Islam and
devoting myself to Allah? Does my writing say to you "I
want to become a Muslim"? I THINK NOT! So I was shocked to
see, when I logged in that I had 6 messages. One from a
dear friend and 5 from [email protected]. Actually it
was 5 copies of the same message. I read the first
paragraph and half way through that, once I realized it
was an attempt at luring me towards a religion, I
dismissed it. If I can't accept the rigidity of
Christianity, why the hell would I subscribe to a religion
that would make me cover my head and face in public and be
submissive in the presence of men. FUCK THAT! I'm an
American woman through and through and I there's just no
way I could live that way. I have absolutely NOTHING
against the Nation of Islam or Muslims in general, I'm
just very aware that it's not for me. I personally thing
its morally reprehensible to force feed your religion on
someone who didn't ask for it. Missionary work rubs me the
wrong way. Religious takeovers and other "works for God"
that really just mask a people's desire to control another
people. I think I'll be delving into my Buddhism books
more deeply now. I can see already from the few chapters
I've read that I agree with the ideology far more than I
ever did Christianity. I still have a long way to go
before I even know enough to know if I want to convert,
but I won't know if I don't learn. So, I will. Sorry
friendlysaif, I'm not interested in your faith.

After my major meltdown last night, I needed some time to
collect myself. Snookums fell asleep around llpm and by
ll:30pm, I'd put on some running clothes and snuck out the
front door. The heat had broken a little, it was a
comfortable 73* and I just walked. It was peaceful in the
dark. I called Dad and we talked for awhile and he really
helped me put some things into perspective. I felt 1000%
better after that talk. I only wish Snookums understood me
half as well, but is that too much to ask of the simple
man I fell in love with? I came home from my walk and fell
asleep on the couch around 3am. Snookums brought me to bed
around 4am and I got up at 8am, ready to try again at
life.

I've decided I need to go back on Oprah's Bootcamp. I'll
end this year of weight loss just as I started it. On the
bootcamp plan! I've got 20 pounds (plus some premenstrual
weight on top of that) I need to drop to reach my 100
pounds lost mark and I think Oprah can help me. Today was
day 1 of week 1 and it was a little rocky, but that's to
be expected and I know it'll only get better from here.

I got Snookums front end damage taken care of. Phil (my
collision repair guy) heated the front bumper and popped
it out with his bare hands in less than 10 minutes and
charged me a measly $20. I spend more on hair gel and
mousse this morning at the Exchange, so I was STOKED! My
car is perfect again!

The rest of my day was the usual. We stopped by the mall
to have Snookums watch sized (I told him he needed a
couple of links taken out), we picked up the girls, I made
dinner (sauteed chicken breasts coated in cheese and
garlic bread crumbs, with steamed vegetables)and then
Snookums and I had hot, sticky sex on a dining room chair
before we showered and here I am now. That's my story and
I"m sticking to it. Ciao!




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