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My Life Thus Far
2006-07-10 06:09:10 (UTC)

A Delicate Balancing Act

I don't much feel like writing right now, but since I
didn't write last night and a lot has happened, I figured
I should.

Snookums is gone. Dad left about 10 minutes ago to take
him back to the ship. This weekend went by way too fast.
And now the very thing I've been looking forward to for
the last two weeks is over. I'll be leaving here Tuesday
morning, getting home sometime on Wednesday, then back to
ordinary life on Thursday. It'll be both a good and bad
thing, considering how happy I've been here (but
physically uncomfortable because I don't have my spacious
bathroom, cooshy bed and familiar surroundings) and how
miserable I've been at home (but physically comfortable
because I've got all my things around me). My sanity is a
delicate balancing act.

Yesterday was a busy day. We went to Sea World, which was
one of those things I've wanted to do since I was a child,
but never got to do. I don't know if it's because I'm an
adult or because it just didn't appeal to me, but it
didn't seem to be all that great. I had a wonderful time
with my family, but the crowds, heat and pelting sun on my
already crispy-fried skin just wasn't my idea of a perfect
time. None-the-less, I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere
else on the planet at that moment in time. My family is so
important to me. I've finally got that one illusive think
I've always wanted. A sense of belonging. I did get a
couple cool souvenirs. A necklace made of shell bits and a
little conch shell pendant, edged in gold trim. It's so
cute and unique. I actually replaced my jade cabeshon with
it. At least for the time being.

Today was an equally good day, but less busy. We slept in,
pitter-pattered around the house all morning (Snookums and
I topped off the weekend with our 10th sexual encounter)
and I developed a urinary tract infection. Always fun. I
don't know how I keep getting them, but I always seem to
get one right when Snookums gets home and we've had sex
several times. I think I'm allergic to him :) Kidding. I
think it's just an introduction of germs my delicate girl
parts aren't used to. After all, men handle their "tool"
with dirty hands all the time. I'm sure Snookums is no
different. Anyways, I'm suppose to be talking about my
day, not my urinary tract. We went to the California Pizza
Kitchen for lunch (I had the hawaiian pizza and the
chocolate carmel pecan cheesecake), which was really good.
Then we went to see the new Pirates Of The Caribbean
(which isn't my kind of movie and was far too long and
boring for me to even pretend I enjoyed). After the movie,
we came home so I could finish Snookie's laundry (which
Dad ended up doing) and I spend a few hours dwelling on
the fact that Snookie is leaving me yet again. But the
plus side to the whole situation, is that in less than two
weeks, he'll be home!!! If that isn't enough to make a
lonely Navy Wife optimistic, then I don't know what is.

I don't think I've formally discussed the subject of how
well Dad and I have been getting along, but I believe it
has to be somewhat apparent by the way I write favorable
about him. We get along so well, it's like the polar
opposite to how poorly Mom and I got along. All the
qualities about me that SHE deemed as negative are
actually valuable survival skills I inherited from my Dad.
I'm not trying to put him up on a pedestal by any means.
He should have done more to assure that he was in my life.
He shouldn't have let so much time pass without seeing me.
I realize all this, but it's pretty much just water under
the bridge. I'm too much in need of family to be pushing
people who want to love me away. That's just stupid.

I'm tired. The past two days have really taking there toll
on me. Not in a bad way, but between making up for lost
sex, family excursions and the hot SoCal sun, I'm a little
sleepy. Which, is such a lovely feeling. Ciao.




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