Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
Narcolepsy and A Nasty Sunburn
Yet another great day, I'm pleased to say. I think the
secret to why I'm feeling so good is diversion. It's not
that I don't like Washington State. It's a nice enough
place to live. I'm just SO familiar with my surroundings,
have NO family and nothing to do aside from my usual
everyday routine. Even variations from the norm are still
the norm, because my surroundings never change. Getting
the hell out of Dodge was exactly what I needed.
Today was pretty much a repeat of yesterday. I picked
Chris up from summer school, the kids and I went to the
pool for a few hours, out to dinner. When we got home,
Annie and I painted our nails while Chris played video
games and now they're watching Cartoon Network while I
write. Dad will be home in about an hour.
I've been sleeping like a narcoleptic lately. I sleep
through the night, take naps whenever I'm sitting still
(including poolside, which has resulted in a nasty
sunburn). I feel so protected and safe. I wish Dad and I
hadn't missed so many years together. So many people in my
life are telling me that I should feel animosity towards
him for being absent for all those years. That I should
hold a grudge and I think that's just stupid. Why would I
prolong the pain of being an orphan any longer than I have
to? I want family. I want something to belong to and now I
have that. Not just the family I created, but the family
that created me.
God, this sunburn is killing me. I'm such a retard. I
decided yesterday that even though I'm fully aware of the
sun's harmful effects; that it'll turn my skin into
leather, dry my hair out like steel wool and make me age
before my time, I still want a deep, dark, rich tan
because that's what Snookums loves and there isn't a
single fake tanner that can accurately immitate the look
of a real sun-scorched tan, at least not for me. So, I
laid my pasty ass out on a chaise and BAKED, literally.
For three hours. I neglected to take into account I'm in
sunny SoCal, not overcast and cloudy Washington State.
Even on a sunny day in Seattle, the ultra violet rays are
no comparison to the sun in San Diego. I'm so on fire
right now and I can hardly move without pain, but I'm
gonna be tanned!
Tomorrow morning, Snookums' ship pulls in! Around 10am, I
think. He should be off around noon, 1pm the latest. Dad
is calling in sick so he can spend the day with us and
he'll be picking him up from the ship. We're going to be
at the pool. So, Dad is going to tell Snookums that he
left something down there earlier in the morning and to
come with him to get it, since he hasn't seen the pool
before. Then, he'll come into the gate and be shocked and
surprised to see us there. I'm looking forward to this
sooooo much! 12 hours until his arrival and he still has
no clue. I know he'll be calling me sometime tomorrow
morning and as long as I can get through that conversation
without raising any suspicions, everything will be great.
I hope the narcolepsy doesn't let me down tonight. I might
be too excited to sleep! I'll let you know how the
surprise turns out! Ciao.
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